LGLG (previous WAW New life with OM)

[givingitmyall]

today after work, lifted weights, then took my mom out for dinner as its her birthday. Came home and went on a walk. Kids are with friends and now I'm cleaning the house to get ready for more baking tomorrow.

P,

I hope you are laying off the baked goods much better than I. Been lurking on your thread but not posting much.

You sound good. Keep it up.

[ppenton]

today after work, lifted weights, then took my mom out for dinner as its her birthday. Came home and went on a walk. Kids are with friends and now I'm cleaning the house to get ready for more baking tomorrow.

P,

I hope you are laying off the baked goods much better than I. Been lurking on your thread but not posting much.

You sound good. Keep it up.

That's one of the reasons I walk everyday

[givingitmyall]

Yep. I hit the gym hard tonight for the same reason.

[ClingingToHope]

PPenton, you've been at this longer than I and probably hit harder -- the OM -- than I have been, yet you seem so much at piece.

You aren't much older than me. I so want my M to work out, but I look at my W and she just seems so sure of herself -- not happy -- but determined to make it work without me.

At what point do you give up and say a D is best for everyone involved? Aren't you worried that there is another path out there for you to follow?

[ppenton]

PPenton, you've been at this longer than I and probably hit harder -- the OM -- than I have been, yet you seem so much at piece.

You aren't much older than me. I so want my M to work out, but I look at my W and she just seems so sure of herself -- not happy -- but determined to make it work without me.

At what point do you give up and say a D is best for everyone involved? Aren't you worried that there is another path out there for you to follow?

ClingingToHope, I am at peace as I do trust in God. He has a plan for me and I am trying to follow the path He has set forth for me. I’m not worried about the path I’m on as I know God will show me the way. If the Lord has another direction for me then I’ll need to adjust to this new path. As I have mentioned I do not know if my sitch will end in reconciliation or D, however, I do know I will be great. This has been a wonderful (albeit very painful) learning experience. Since, I do not want a D and believe in M for life, I have not made a decision for how long I’ll wait. It’s not like I’m sitting at home by the phone waiting for her to call

I am very thankful to Jesus for holding and carrying me many miles throughout my journey in 2009 and I know He’ll be there in 2010 and beyond. Yes, it’s been a long year but at times very fulfilling and I have been blessed with new friends, closer relationships with family and a beautiful niece who is just an angel!

I was given some really good advice when I first came on this board from many people and especially from 25yearsmlc, who expressed to me to be very, very patient and to “Keep the road home paved and smooth”. As this will be a long road and that time is on your side. My W told me and her friends that she will make her new life with OM work no matter what but I have seen her many times this past year where she does not look nor act happy as she did when the A started. She has told me how much she misses the kids but does not make an effort to see them more (action speaks louder than words)

I have worked very hard this year to learn about myself and to detach, keep my life going, raising my teenage sons and spreading love and happiness to others. My IC has told me many times this year how he thinks I am doing a great job and not missing out on any opportunities to spend time with others. I don’t always post here everything I do in RL but I have gone to a wedding, a reunion and other events where I would usually take my W. He was happy to hear I still went and interacted with others at these events. I told him that I am still open to reconcile but that I want to enjoy life and that I do not need her or anyone else to bring me happiness. I realize that happiness and joy/sorrow and anger come from within. The tools I have been blessed with and utilize, including this board have been instrumental in my recovery and growth from bomb day (Dec 27, 2008).

Hope this makes sense.
Bottom line is I feel good, am happy with who I am and loving the fact I’m growing everyday and spending time with my sons as I know they will be in college in a blink of an eye.

Wishing everyone and their families a blessed and Merry Christmas!!

Ppenton

Show me Your ways, O LORD, teach me Your paths; guide me in Your truth and teach me, for You are God, my Savior, and my hope is in You all day long. ~ Psalm 25:4-5

[ClingingToHope]

I have never been an avid reader of the bible, although I have embraced church like never before. If you were to pick one book of the bible to read to get through the low points, which would it be?

[ppenton]

I have never been an avid reader of the bible, although I have embraced church like never before. If you were to pick one book of the bible to read to get through the low points, which would it be?

Well, I'm new to reading the Bible and not sure which book to recommend. I read the Bible over the summer from BibleGateway and plan on reading it again next summer. The Psalms & Proverbs are inspirational as well as the gospels. Maybe someone else with a deeper background can make a recommendation.

[wolverine1997]

Psalms and Proverbs are excellent. Also, consider reading the Gospel accounts of Matthew, Mark, Luke and John. In those books we learn about the life of Jesus and the example that he set for all of us. From Jesus' example we learn how to be a good husband since he is the perfect husband of the congregation and displays a perfect love to his bride at all times. Also, we learn how to be good wives since Jesus is in a wife like position to his Father and works in harmony with his Father's will. Also, he shows a deep respect for his Father. If every person, both husbands and wives, worked hard to follow in the footsteps and apply the counsel of Jesus their would be no need for websites like this one.

[ppenton]

MERRY CHRISTMAS

May your heart be filled with the wonder of His love;
May you rejoice in His mercy and grace;
May you feel the warmth of His presence;
And, may the promise of the birth of Christ fill all your tomorrows with hope.

Wishing you and your families a very blessed and Merry Christmas!!

Thank you all again for your support and love!

[ppenton]

Today, W came over to pick up kids to bring to her mom's house. We talked for a bit and then W gave me a big hug, which I told her was nice.

Now, I'm baking oatmeal-cranberry cookies and then will make some fudge. Then will go for a walk and try not to slip on the ice. When the kids get home I'll take them along with S16's girlfriend to my uncle's house for some good food, drinks and fun