I am Don Quixote

[sleeper]

This was so rich I must share it with you all (the fortune in my cookie from lunch).......

"Now is the time to go ahead and pursue that love interest!"

I think I'll eat at Mexican resturants for a while.

[Fallgirl]

Sleeper, maybe your love interest should be you!

Mind you! Mind the kids! Let X slip out of your life.

I`m really begining to wonder if on some level some of us DBers are just plain addicted to spouses who treat us badly.

C`mon you`re a talented guy, GAL goals please for you and your kids!

[forward]

Sleeper, You will move forward. It is difficult but you will do it.

Do not have regrets for doing your very, very best by the whole situation.

[sleeper]

I'm really beginning to wonder if on some level some of us DBers are must plain addicted to spouses who treat us badly.

I don't think so, Fallgirl. I was thinking today how messed up X was at bomb; the alien invasion thing, 1,000 mile stare, rages, etc.

The real proof I wasn't imagining things was her disregard for the kids and not missing them. The past couple of weeks she has mentioned several times how much she misses them and how "hard" it is to not have them 50% of the time. She also doesn't sound herself on the phone. She sounds depressed.

We're not addicted to spouses who treat us badly, we know something is wrong with them.

I do have goals for myself and my kids. I've been working out again. I'm back on my meds. The kids and I are going on a three day camping trip this weekend.

[sleeper]

Thanks forward.

It is like the C said: The script was already written when this began. I couldn't stop it but I do think my 180's may have slowed it down and made her think twice. I have tried to steer this towards the path of least destruction and in some respects I may have succeeded.

We are cordial, even friendly to one another. So much so to the point that I can tell she responds to me differently on the phone when she is alone compared to when she is talking to me and OM is with her. She calls me so much when he is out of town that the other day she said, "OK, this is the last time I'm going to bother you." when she called.

I can tell OM really doesn't like me now. Someone once described him as a "pompus *ss". That description popped into my head the other day and it perfectly describs they way he responds to me of late. What's the old saying? "Marriage doesn't change people, it reveals who they truly are." Funny how Karma has a way of working, isn't it?

I have no regrets.

It is what it is and I did what I did, or.....

"I is what I is and I am what I am." Popeye

[Fallgirl]

I`m glad you have some fun lined up for you and the kids, Sleeper. I`ve been reading so many different theories about why I am still with H I still can`t say I`ve really figured it out-and maybe never will!

Yip, I do agree that my H isn`t well either but in some way my reaction to his `sickness` is part of what he needs to justify his anger. He needs to blame me for his unhappiness.

I don`t mean to lecture you-too much in a muddle myself with all of this.

It`s energy sapping stuff.Keeping my calm and minding me are the best things I`ve done.

[sleeper]

Having weird dreams again.

Last night I dreamed X and I were in an antique auto that was pulling a trailer. I guess we both had too much baggage to fit into the trunk.

I just read in the local paper that the local opera will be presenting "Man of LaMancha" this weekend (I kid you not). I'm considering going.

Somebody wake me up.

[forward]

I think you should go to the local opera. The wild winds of fortune will carry you onward!

Glad to hear you are going camping. You and your kids deserve to have some fun and I hope you do it.

[Andabelle]

You could write an opera...

Have fun.

[sleeper]

If I do it will be over on "Surviving the Big D" as that is where I need to be.

Farewell to all.

Good hunting and good luck.