K4D Rising #4

[Steve McQueen]

I could be her greatest project to ever succeed. Maybe she would jump at the challenge to completely ground me once and for all.

Kevin

ha. I remember her complaining alot that you never listen to anything she wrote; so, you must just want someone to type in RED on your thread again.

here goes,

Contary to your statement, your situation is entirely in YOUR hands. The way you feel and the way you act is completely of your own doing. Single, married, seperated, divorced, widowed, whatever, it really doesnt make one iota of difference. You and only you are responsible for your own personal happiness. Mend your broken heart!

[K4D]

Steve McQueen,

I do listen. I don't always act on everything. But I certainly listen.

I know that I determine my own happiness. However, that being said, it doesn't thrill me to have my family split up. I am not thrilled to have to go through this. My kids are not thrilled about it either. It bothers me that they have to go through this. It bothers me when I think about the promise being broken to them that they would never have to endure this.

But I have faith in God that my beloved darling W will come to her senses at some point and all of this will be resolved. I just wish it was sooner than later.

Kevin

[K4D]

It looks like D11 is still sick and with her grandma. I haven't seen her for a couple of days. It doesn't look like I will get her back tonight either and then my beloved darling wife will have her tomorrow night unless she goes out with her friends. But I will get her back Saturday. I will have D7 tonight.

Interesting note. When I have both D11 and D7, D7 fights like crazy against getting up and moving in the morning. But yesterday morning, since D11 was not there, D7 was up and moving and cheerful and even pushing me to get up. We will see if that continues tomorrow morning.

Kevin

[MrBond]

"beloved darling wife"

This is just eerie.

[K4D]

Why is that eerie Stuck? I am trying to see her in a positive light as I should regardless of the circumstances. If I think positively about her, I am less likely to be angry with her. It is a way to remind myself that my W is loved and I need to keep unconditional love for her no matter what.

Kevin

[MrBond]

To call your W "beloved darling wife" a day after you were complaining about her being an irresponsible mother (in not so many words) is creepy.

Don't get me wrong. I'm all for positive feelings towards the WAS. But that just goes to another extreme a little too quickly. You waffle between hate and love. And before you start saying that you don't "hate" her because of her decisions, blah blah blah. All your posts suggest otherwise.

It's these extreme flip flops that have people saying that you seem to be having stalker tendencies. AND before you say you are not a stalker, blah blah blah. YOU are developing TENDENCIES of a stalker.

You revolve so much of your feelings around her and are working so hard to force yourself into seeing her in a positive light, that you are deteriorating your own emotional and mental health.

Take your blinders off.

[K4D]

I have my moments of frusturation. It is not always a bed or roses in this situation.

Kevin

[K4D]

25,

Are you up for bowling?

Kevin

[MrBond]

"I have my moments of frusturation. It is not always a bed or roses in this situation."

We all do. But the majority of us aren't usually so extreme in our moods a year later.

[K4D]

I have been through my ups and downs. But I still feel passionately about marriage restoration. I don't think there is anything that can take that away.

Kevin