Saffie and Sara, I will reply to your emails soon. I've been pretty busy. I guess that's a good thing.
I have talked to Mr. A everyday this week, often more than once. We have been having conflicting schedules about seeing each other. I'm going to dinner with a friend tonight. I picked up some shirts for him the other night that asked me to get. I will probably drop them off at his house afterwards.
He had a business dinner last night, he wanted to cancel it and see me, but I told him, not a good idea. Tonight is dinner with my friend. I think we may see each other tomorrow night.
After living in limbo so long with my H and being at his beck and call, I've made up my mind I will not let that happen again. I will see Mr. A when it is convenient for me. I hope that doesn't sound callous, but I believe many can relate.
I do like Mr. A, but I won't let it be all about him. I plan on having my own life too. I think one thing we all get out of this is that we can become stronger and become our own person. I am discovering that person and don't want to lose her.
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
I think one thing we all get out of this is that we can become stronger and become our own person. I am discovering that person and don't want to lose her.
With a twist, I think we become the person we used to be and slipped away from. And yet stronger at the same time.
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11
Today during my third period class. My DD18 who is a college freshman called me twice. She knows when my break is so I was worried something was wrong. I texted her and said, "I'm in class. Something wrong?" To which she texted back, "Nothing wrong I was just going to let you know that DSW is having a gigantic shoe sale." Kids.....
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
Found you here, Yoyo. I, too, am finding myself. Then maybe I'll find a Mr. A myself. My new job is keeping me too busy to even meet new people, but things should settle down soon. Meanwhile, I am just enjoying my own company!
Hi Mattie, Isn't it nice to find yourself and discover that your own company isn't too bad at all? How do you like your new job? How is your DD?
I had a nice quiet evening with Mr. A. He had a very stressful week. The corporate people were down all week going over the accounting with him at his complex. He tried to explain some of it to me, but went right over my head. I'm the person who has a hard enough time keeping up with my few bills and balancing my checkbook. Can't imagine trying to keep up with the financials of a complex as large as the one he is head accountant for.
This morning I got out early and did some errands. I passed the OW on the interstate. Still have a hard time not wanting to run her off of the road. Good thing it was the interstate and the median separated us. LOL
A thought occured to me as I passed OW. Yes, she may have taken the "prize", but I do think it is definitely a "booby prize". Being with Mr. A has shown me how nice it is to be with a man who only has eyes for me. For so long STBXH played both me and OW, lying to both of us, sneaking around to see both of us. He was actually cheating on her with me in a sense. My very smart DD21 once told me this about her dad and his mistress, "if he cheated with her, he will cheat on her". I suspect this is correct. Sad that a child has to say this about her parent. It sure has given her a jaded view of marriage.
Things continue to go well with Mr. A, but I am liking the fact that at the end of the date, I can go to my own house. Never thought I would get to the point that being alone actually doesn't bother me. Even with DD18 being off at college now, I'm doing okay, actually better than okay.
Funny story, DD18 called me yesterday evening. She said that she and a friend were in Little Rock shopping and wanted to know if I wanted to meet her for dinner. I told her I had plans, she was quite appalled that her mother didn't want to meet her. Even tried to lay a guilt trip on me. LOL. I think our roles are reversed. It's usually the mother getting upset because the college aged child can't find time for them. I did offer to meet her tonight, but she said didn't know what she had planned. I tried...
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
So glad things are going well in your life. Yes, your STBX was a booby prize. I'm sure when your daughters meet Mr. A they will like him too. I still am in awe of how quickly you found a better man than the one you were married to all those years!
Good thing it was the interstate and the median separated us. LOL