W is going to re file for divorce this week and have me served. I totally blew it last night. I went way overboard in our argument. She said she doesn't believe that I could ever love her based on things I said last night in anger. I can't believe I blew it.
Kevin
Me 36, W 37 M: 08/02/97 D13, D9 1st Bomb 02/08 Reconciled 04/08 2nd Bomb: 09/08 W filed for D 02/04/09 Separated 03/09 D dismissed 06/09/09 Still separated...
Did you even mention the real reason you don't want to sign the title? Admittedly, it does look like you are using your position as her legal husband to try to control her. She wants a car. It is the best time to buy a car. A Kia Spectra is not a wild and crazy purchase. What makes you think that she won't be able to find work after December? $200./month car payment is very cheap. There are none cheaper.
I relapsed last night. I am so ashamed to even admit it. Yall were right. I have been in tears this morning. I'm going back to AA and going through the full program.
My W hates me and she is with someone else again. She thinks what I said was me just being mean. She doesn't know that I relapsed and I don't know whether to tell her or not because I don't want her thinking it was me just being mean. But I don't know which would look worse.
I tried telling her this morning I am extremely sorry and I really do love her and I let things get control of me last night when we started fighting. She said I couldn't love her with the things I said.
I don't know what to tell her. I am so afraid of whether to tell her the truth or not. It wasn't me talking last night.
I totally screwed up and don't know what to do now. How can she ever respect me again or know that I do really love her?
I am completely torn apart today. How could I have been so stupid? How could I have made such poor choices? What has my life come to? It just doesn't feel like it is worth living anymore. What have I done?
Kevin
Me 36, W 37 M: 08/02/97 D13, D9 1st Bomb 02/08 Reconciled 04/08 2nd Bomb: 09/08 W filed for D 02/04/09 Separated 03/09 D dismissed 06/09/09 Still separated...
I don't feel like I am worth anyone's respect. I became such a loser. No wonder my W wants nothing to do with me.
Kevin
Me 36, W 37 M: 08/02/97 D13, D9 1st Bomb 02/08 Reconciled 04/08 2nd Bomb: 09/08 W filed for D 02/04/09 Separated 03/09 D dismissed 06/09/09 Still separated...
I DO. YOU DO NOT PAY ATTENTION TO ANYTHING ANYBODY HERE SAYS TO YOU!!!
Originally Posted By: K4D
I totally blew it last night. I went way overboard in our argument. She said she doesn't believe that I could ever love her based on things I said last night in anger.
You have a history of instability, but you also have a right to stand up for yourself. From what you tell us about her see plays you as her fool and you let her. So you stand up for yourself and she doesn't like it. BIG F'ing DEAL KEVIN.
But what did you really say that what was so destructive to your so-called 'marriage'? A continuation of the way you acted in you alcoholism days, per chance?
Originally Posted By: K4D
W is going to re file for divorce this week and have me served.
Bone Up on your Softball, Dude.
50% chance she is bluffing looking for you to pay for her crusier. 50% chance you need this divorce, as a kick in the pants to start moving on down the road.
I called her an adulterous high dollar prostitue. I was so angry at her. She wants nothing to do with me now and I can't blame her. How could I have said that.
This morning she said she doesn't care what I do with the van. She will get her vehicle anyways.
I TOTALLY BLEW IT. I KNOW I DID. I LET THINGS GET TO ME AND I BLEW IT. I WENT OFF THE DEEP END and now I am in serious regret.
Kevin
Me 36, W 37 M: 08/02/97 D13, D9 1st Bomb 02/08 Reconciled 04/08 2nd Bomb: 09/08 W filed for D 02/04/09 Separated 03/09 D dismissed 06/09/09 Still separated...
