It's come to the conclusion I'm no more than an inconvenience to every life I've touched and became unwanted every step of the way.
To my parents Samuel and Patricia, a unwanted son.
To my now ex-wife Tracy, a unwanted friend, companion, lover and husband.
To my boys Joseph and Christian, through the knowing wisdon of their mother (no sarcasm enlaid), an unwanted father.
I guess the meaning of life has cast it's way down on me.
For those whom bask in the sun and reveal life for every moment it is worth, then endless sunsets you shall see.
For those as myself whom silently beackon nightfall, may eternal darkenss comfort you in a warm silky shroud of one prolonged incoming storm laidened sunset. We have lived as thus we were allowed and embodied to, no more, no less. Our roles of this world were not meant ot be.
And thus, good bye. May peace, solice and serenity find you all in whatever way it see just and fit.
Peace, love and harmony...
Dylan (dday101798)
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11
Wow I hope this guy is ok. I hope you are still reading this thread Dday. I am a "suicide survivor" (related to someone who did).. and the impact on loved one's lives is just enormous. I know you are in pain and I know you want that pain to go away but you have kids and no matter what anyone says to them they need you in their lives.
The greatest lie that the Enemy ever tries to convince us of, the one deceit that is perpetuated to each and every one of us, no matter how great or how small we might be or how strong in ourselves, is three words: "I don't matter."
Dylan, you DO matter. Your children do need you. Your family does need you. To think that no one in your life needs you is a huge lie, the greatest and most deceptive of lies. Jesus Christ died for you, as he died for all of us. And if you were the only lamb that ever needed saving, still the Shepherd would have laid his life down for you.
WE need you, brother. I know it's tough. But hang in there.
Hey man. Email me if you want. pat77_60805@yahoo.com. C'mon, I know this crap is hard and trust me, I'm not feeling all fuzzy and fluffy myself. Besides: We live in Chicago!! You know: All Al Capone-type tough guys. Don't go making us look bad chief. Look; This is no bs: Email me. We'll talk, maybe even grab some beers at a nice Irish bar with ice cold beer. I'm not just saying this stuff either.
Oh, and we need to set an example here. Many other cities and other countries are on these boards. We need to maintain our Chicago reputations, so dude, represent!! Seriously....the offer holds.
