Thats good Mdoodles....surprising them is always good....I think I did that the other day by letting my H know I werent interested in him like that right now.
Really after what happened a month or so ago, I dont think it will happen again for a long time.
Made me feel used.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Completely, honestly losing it today. NOT having a good day at all. I want answers to WHY my life has been turned upside down by the person who promised to love me always???
Im sitting here in tears....all alone.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
join the club! im feeling the same exact way as you today!
went out with a friend last night, im so not ready or interested in meeting someone, im married and this wasnt supposed to happen to me and i dont want to let it happen to me...
went to the gym this morning and just sold my patio set to husband's cousin...its killing me, i was crying, i dont want to sell it i dont want to move this is all his fault...
he doesnt know who i sold it to but i will tell him...
we will get through this, we are better than this kissak
me: 31 H:29 Son:5 m:8 years in november t:10 years first bomb: 10/06 moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08 ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06 d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08 moved home:3/09 out again 5/09
Thanks Mdoodles....I did get out of the house for a while and mow the yard...but I cried the entire time.
I just need things to change.
I took my H off my fb today....too much anxiety for me to see what he is up to or who is talking to him.
Found out he is talking to and trying to see a woman at my son's tkd class. So, I wont be going there anymore. The anxiety is horrible for me. My son has been begging me to take him out of that class. He doesnt enjoy it, and just plays when there anyway. Guess that just makes it easier to do. Im sure my H will fuss, he will probably even offer to start taking him himself....Just so he can see this woman. My H doesnt even go to see the kids anyway...in times past he just went to see me. So, why go anymore. I will find something my son enjoys doing and get him into that.
Today my H is at the beach with the tkd class....and the kids, im sure that woman is there.
So its put me in a mood.
Im ready for answers that Im not getting. Not from him, or God. I just want to know what to do. I want to move on with my life. Some days I just want him out of it. I feel he just uses me.
Im sure he will be upset that I took him off my friends list...but my page is public....Im not keepin him from me....Im just keeping myself from the hurt of whats on his page. It's about ME for a change.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Good move-- you need to separate yourself from his madness as much as possible. I don't think he should get to use your S as a prop for picking up women either.
oh, totally take your son out of the class, i would love to see your husband's expression when u tell him!
i was crying too this morning, i know exactly how u feel.
i dont know what to do either, its not fair, are they wondering what to do? like we are?
it must be nice to be like them and not care or think too much...
me: 31 H:29 Son:5 m:8 years in november t:10 years first bomb: 10/06 moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08 ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06 d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08 moved home:3/09 out again 5/09
Exactly Mdoodles...it must nice to be capable of moving from one relationship to the next. It must be so nice to be able to just stop having feelings and all that for someone. I wish I knew how people do it.
Thanks for backing me up....i dont want to go to the class anymore than my son does....I think maybe later he can pick it back up if he wants, but he really doesnt enjoy it. Im sure my H will say that we need to make him go anyway...but he lives with me and I am the one responsible for him getting there and Im the one that has to hear him whine about not wanting to go...so I think I should have a say in taking him out...or atleast the final decision and if it makes him mad...oh well.
He did try to get me to talk to him today...by text...he even called me. I ignored the call and to the text I just replyed "Im not in a talking mood"....of course I got all the whys and wanting to know what was wrong...I just replyed with "I hope the kids had fun at the beach".
Im tired and I just wanna know what to do next.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
i think we know what to do next. but neither of us are doing it.
me: 31 H:29 Son:5 m:8 years in november t:10 years first bomb: 10/06 moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08 ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06 d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08 moved home:3/09 out again 5/09
Well I guess we just need the backbone to do it. I mean my fear is that if I go dark on him, and even tell him that if he is going to date other women, that he needs to go and file for a divorce. That its not right to date, while still married to me and making me think there maybe hope or something. I guess Im afraid he will go and do it...and that I would have made a mistake by telling him that...but I need to get past thinking what I do will affect him. He will do what he wants either way.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
I am sorry things are rough for you lately. You don't deserve it. They have no clue what we go through. He is not worth your time right now. They compartmentalize their life so they can deal with all of their bad behavior. He is not happy. He is a miserable man in pursuit of something that does not exist. Love him from way far away. There is one thing that they cannot take away from us... and that is the love we still have for them, the unconditional love. The type of love they have never learned or seen. Hugs my friend,
Trusting
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
