You have a lot of healing to do, and it comes at the rate that comes - you can't rush it. This relationship was a huge, terrific step forward for you, and you should try to celebrate that even as you face some regrets.
There will be more steps that go even farther in the future, count on it!
Thread #10 22 year M, MLC, Piecing since 1/07 Goal: Live with confidence & enthusiasm!
Thanks y'all. Very sad today and to make matters worse, Carrie called me and bitched me out about the divorce. She laid out all kinds of BS on me and accused me of stalling. I tried to explain to her what the hold ups have been in my opinion and she didn't want to hear any of it. I told her that I would call my lawyer, have her input the new financial numbers and sign it and send it over to her lawyer so we can get this done.
This is the point where she went off. She started cussing me up one end and down the other. Every other word was Fuckk and she was yelling and screaming. Truth be told, due to my demeanor today I couldn't even fight back. I sat there and listened to her go off for about 2 minutes and then hung up on her. I started to text her and tell her when she is rational we can talk and she called again. She was still bitchy, but not cussing at me.
She accused me of keeping it hidden from her that I wanted more child support. I tried to explain to her that when we mediated I hadn't been laid off yet. I told her that I hadn't said anything at this point because I was hoping to find another job and we wouldn't even have to deal with adjusting numbers but it is very hard out there and finding work is taking time.
I have no damn clue what happened to Carrie, never in 16 years of marriage did she ever speak like that. I kept thinking to myself as she was berating me, why couldn't she fight like this when our marriage was in trouble...why now? She is truly a lost soul and it saddens me to see what she has become now. She is truly a bad person today and full of hatred. I hope some day she can find her center again and become the amazing woman she used to be.
Rob, 25, and all the rest of you, I know exactly what this was with Yakeline. I know that it will help me grow and that the odds are that there will be other relationships that fail down the road. I have not lost sight that I will be ok and that life will be good again. My feelings are what are hard to deal with right now. I just didn't get how much she meant to me. I am saddened that I don't have it in me to give her what she is looking for right now and believe me if I felt like I could I would have.
I have two interviews today. One at 1:00 that is a first interview for a GM position here in Memphis. The second is at 4:00 and it is a 3rd interview with a company here at the Memphis International Airport. I am hoping that soon I can land something that will help get me back on my feet. The friend who I am temporarily working for told me I could work at night for him once I get another job to try and play catch up on some of the bills that are falling way behind. It will be a lot of hard work and time lost with my kids but I think I will need to do it for a month or so.
So wish me luck on the interviews and keep it in your prayers please......
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
Ian, I am sorry that your days haven't been good. I love what 25 yrs said (brilliant, that one!). Sounds like you are staying on top of your stress, and that's all you can do in times like this.
I am sending you hugs with my heart, and sending up prayers. I am so sorry for all that you are going through. But you were honest, even if it would have been "easier" not to be. That is the true measure of a man.
Hey Tom... 1st interview went like crap. Within 5 minutes I knew that our business philosophies were way different. He still wanted to finish the interview so we did. It just isn't gonna happen is all.
2nd interview went great. It was my third interview with this company and this one was with a Sr HR rep and the Area Director for the southeast. I should know something on that one in 2 weeks but i felt really good about the interview and they both were pretty clear that they were definitely interested.
