Was just on Cinders thread and she talked about how her H fits many of the characteristics of Narcissism.
I will admit that Spongebob does as well. That is why I wonder if he was ever in MLC or not. Maybe he had some break and gave into his narcissistic ego. I think it was a part of him all along.
So, now I see how a lot of it really had nothing to do with me. Nothing I could have done would have changed his decisions. I could have been a PERFECT wife and he STILL would have gone this way. I do not believe that he would have ever come back now. He had EVERY opportunity...and yet he never took it. I can see him for what he is. And you know what? He did me a favor by leaving and never coming back. Wish he would have wanted a divorce a hell of a lot sooner, but again, that feeds into the narcissism role. He needs to be needed and he needs to be in control.
And now, I am walking away...and I am never gonna look back. There IS a better life out there...my life is too precious, I am important to too many people to feel depressed. And over what? A man who was, in the end, not worthy? A man who could never be what I needed him to be? Nope. That is time wasted in my opinion.
I am declaring 2009 the year of ME. Where I get to explore what is important to me and how to get to a happy place for me and me alone.
Eventually, I may meet someone who makes my heart aflutter but I am not betting the farm on it. Right now, I just want to enjoy MY life...and all the wonderful, beautiful people in it.
Cheers! Valentine
Aug '06: H moved out July '08: H had a kid with the OW May 12 '09: emancipation day
"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller
