Hey Phil, I understand the foggy feeling and the clouded head. You did better last night. Perhaps you would have done even better if it wasn't so late at night.
Don't look for the improvement on her end yet. Its is little early, even though she's been gone what seems like forever. The point is to keep working on you and being positive.
Are you seeing any counselors to give you someone to talk to. It is helping me tremendously. Just a thought.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
To me its all psychobabble. We have to put labels on everything, and then once it is labled there still isn't any answers.
I watched the Soprano's for six years. Where did therapy get Tony.
Ok that is a bad example.
Ok, I need help with two things non related.
1. When does a thread get locked, this one is at 20 pages.
2. What is the name for this? When a person uses a mouth jesture and makes a chick or click sound. Kind of like a wink with the mouth by making a sound.
“The Most Holy Virgin, in these last times in which we live, has given a new efficacy to the recitation of the Rosary to such an extent that there is no problem, no matter how difficult it is, temporal or especially spiritual, in the personal life of each one of us, of our families, of the families of the world or of the religious communities, or even of the life of peoples and nations, that cannot be solved by the Rosary. There is no problem, I tell you, no matter how difficult it is that we cannot resolve by the prayer of the Holy Rosary. With the Holy Rosary, we will save ourselves. We will sanctify ourselves. We will console Our Lord and obtain the salvation of many souls."
Sister Lucia (seer at Fatima) to Father Fuentes, 1957
You should be locking soon. The mod's will catch up with you. Its usually around 100 posts.
The mouth think I just think is a click. That is what the dog trainer called it when I took the dog to obedience.
Seriously Phil. I think you could use a little psychobable. It is helping me tremendously and you might make more progress than on your own.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
I saw this today in my in-box and I thought of you....
Each Tuesday Bob shares from the prodigal's view, over two decades after his remarriage to Charlyne. - - - - -
It Is Hard For A Prodigal When -
Nothing I say or do seems to shock or upset you.
"I forgive you" is uttered as often as my name.
"Don't worry about it" is your answer to everything I have done.
You let me talk about you-know-who and you just smile.
I see you growing spiritually when I am living in sin.
You build me up to our kids so they still love me.
You have zipped your lips.
You are content living with almost nothing.
You agree to anything and everything I ask.
You depend on Jesus, and not on me, to be your provider.
I can't push your buttons like I once did.
You make it impossible for me to hate you, or even to dislike you.
You seem to remember all the things I like.
You remind me that you will be waiting until you die.
I know the home I left could always be my refuge from the storms of life.
I suspect everyone is reminding you how I will never change, and adding how old dogs don't learn new tricks. I am not a dog and I am not out to learn tricks. I set out to be happy without you, but every time you show me unconditional love, instead of anger and attempting to get even, something is being changed in my heart, one small bit at a time.
People are also probably telling you not to be a doormat for me, but they have it all wrong. You are not being a door mat, but a welcome home mat.
The prodigal said: "I never loved you." The Lord said: "I have loved you with an everlasting love." (Jeremiah 31:3)
The prodigal said: "You never satisfied me." The Lord said: "You open your hand and satisfy the desire of every living thing." (Psalm 145:16)
The prodigal said: "I am never coming back." The Lord said: "He who goes out weeping carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him." (Psalm 126:6)
The prodigal said: "Stop praying for me!" The Lord said: "Bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you." (Luke 6:28)
The prodigal said: "I hate you." The Lord said: "Everyone who does evil hates the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed." (John 3:20)
The prodigal said: "You act so holy." The Lord said: "For God did not call us to be impure, but to live a holy life." (I Thessanlonians 4:7)
The prodigal said: "You are a hypocrite." The Lord said: "Do not judge, or you too will be judged." (Matthew 7:1)
The prodigal said: "I don't know what to do." The Lord said: "Come, follow me," Jesus said, and I will make you fishers of men." (Mark 1:17)
These words are being written at 6 AM. Charlyne will find them on her vanity as a good morning greeting. How do I know all those things wayward spouses say? Sadly, they have each been uttered in our home. Today, as you prepare to face another day without your spouse serving the Lord look through the eyes of faith at the morning note your mate will leave you, in God's timing.
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
You said it sister... Really I think the best medicine for me now is to just rest. Hopefully she will not screw with me tonight after work. I'm just going to go home and relax.
There is too much on my plate with work and school.
hmmmmmmmmmm, my kids just called me. Son wants to be with me tonight. I asked what his mother was doing. He said she was laying in bed. That's all she ever does on her days off. I would love to tell her to get off her a$$ and install a hard wood floor, drywall, build a deck, or shingle something.
I was a called a lazy SOB when I just wanted to rest on my days off.
Talk to daughter and she says they are going to BK or something with some friends.
That's the only place she ever takes them is BK.
I'm wondering now why she is so tired. Is she up all night boppin someone? Yes the monsters in our head are far worse then the truth. I feel as if I get far less sleep then she does and I have more energy.
I know she is on her feet most of the time running around that ice cream shop.
So much for getting that rest tonight. So much for not having to deal with her. Looks like I'll have the kids every night starting Weds, because she works four to close weds, thurs, fri, and Sun.
You know what they say. There is no rest for the wicked.
"But the wicked are like the troubled sea, when it cannot rest, whose waters cast up mire and dirt." Is 57:20
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
