Partner left after 9 years - still stuck Stage 2

[AliSuddenly]

Can I join in this lovefest!? I consider you BOTH friends, and you both make me feel a tonne better when I hear from you too. You have been like my sanity since January!

So, if he calls later (I think he will, I'm betting he's out exercising in the sun right now)... he will bring up the weekend and I'm sure he will say "I'm sorry Al..." about not seeing me. So.... I was thinking of something to say that isnt pressure, or disapproving or ticking him off, but to let him know that I missed him...

How about.. "I missed spending time with you this weekend"

or "I missed your company at the weekend"

or ?

[Virtually_Handsome]

How about brushing it off, and talking about next weekend, or this week? Don't give him any reason to think any more about it! Maybe talk about your sprocket!

(((((Ali)))))

[AliSuddenly]

Ok. Look ahead. Brush it off. Check.

Well, theres loads of Euro something football on (Kalni, you will know what it is!?) so I guess he is probably watching that somewhere. None of the UK teams qualified, but he loves football.

I ws just thinking that I feel ugly. Its bad, I know. I feel old and tired and my skin is all dry from the sun. But then I spent the day with like 20 year olds and my best mate (whose my age) and they are so young and fresh faced. I'm sure its not about that, but he just doesnt seem to fancy me anymore! I dont know how he can stand it. I have to fight the urge to kiss him every time I see him, but he doesnt seem to be. I guess if you love someone like a mate (as he said last November) then you dont want to kiss them? Or maybe its the depression.

I dont know! I just feel a bit hag-like this evening (cackles like an old crone...)

Ali x

[MichelleLT]

Trust me, you look way better than I do.

[Virtually_Handsome]

((((((Ali))))))

You old hag, you!

I know you don't believe that! Keep reeling him in, perhaps a bolder move isn't too far off. But not yet!

Now, where's my walker.....

[Kalni]

I was feeling the same way today. I thought "what if I see her and she is fresh and beautiful and she has a very thin body and , and and...". Then a Manager at work tells me he can't have me in his department because he wouldn't be able to work "you would distract me" he said... I felt she was nothing...

Now, I look myself in the mirror again and feel "broken" somehow... I may need to think BOTOX...

[Virtually_Handsome]

(((((Kalni)))))

You are beautiful! No need for Botox!

Hey, Big Dave! Chin up!

[Kalni]

Thank you Jeff...

I agree "Hey, Big Dave! Chin up! "

[MichelleLT]

I saw one of the pics you sent Jeff! You are GORGEOUS! You don't need anything except a smile! (((Kalni)))

[AliSuddenly]

I wouldnt be brave enough for botox, but I have frown lines now. I think this thing with my BF hasnt helped! I swear I've aged alot in the past 6 months. Oh, Kalni is gorgeous, yes!

Well, its gone 8 and he hasnt called yet. I feel a bit miserable. I hate being dangled so much, he's been dangling me for weeks and now, just because he is busy, or watching football, or something, he hasnt called. It makes me wonder, perhaps he doesnt miss me afterall, eventhough he didnt see me all weekend? Becuase if he did, he would have phoned/emailed by now, as his Mum left this morning, so theres no reason not to. Hmm, think I have a dose of the Impatientitis today!!!

I am getting tired of this, I cant stand to go on hurting all the time. Maybe I will give him a call by 9 if he doesnt ring...