I'm almost free!

[Lissie]

And now, of course, I will go ahead and do whatever I want!

Love it.

Yup, you do your own thing. That is what I love about all this mess, we make our own decisions.

I will add my 2 cents tho, b/c jeepers, why not.

I think that mr. sexy crush, was being truthful .

Yeah he may think that you were talking R? He may not.

I do think the ball is in his court now.

Flash your smile as you do your cat walk down the hall way, and let him be.

He will come up to you, when he wants to get to know you better.

I know what you want babes, and I totally agree with it.

But i just don't think he is at, where you are at.

And I know, I just want everyone to be on the same page as me Jeeesus their life would be so much easier.

Luv ya

[princess_nic]

Lissie! Good to hear from you - you've been very quiet...


Okay, this subject is now CLOSED. Thank you!!


And Happy Easter, all!

[fig]

crap Nic...

I was away from my computer for forever and I missed wher I could have thrown in my advice!!!

Drat!!!

Anyway...I would say do whatever you want, say what ever you want...

I am too old to play games and it is a lot easier doing whatever you need to do to feel ok with yourself.

have fun with the crush
crushes are yummified!!!

[princess_nic]

Fig -

As long as your advice is for me to do what I want, I'm all ears, lolol!

[LisaLost]

I love crushes, I have a HUGE one myself right now but... I am nowhere near ready for anything- but man it feels strange that another man can make me feel so goo-goo gaa gaaa. Have the same feeling Nic?


Love,Lisa

[whitelight]

Happy Belated Easter, Nic!

[fig]

update please!!!

[LisaLost]

Hey Nic!!

What's happening?

Love,Lisa

[princess_nic]

I figured I'd have to start a new thread, and I don't know what to call it, so I've avoided updating.

But since dear Figlet asked, here it is:

I did talk to him. He looked a little unsure when he saw me, so I'm glad I did. It was very quick, and I just said that it was a misunderstanding, and I don't want to jump into a R either, I just meant getting together in a friendly way.

He said he hadn't known how to take my invitation, and I answered that I know, I'm sorry, I should have clarified, but the conversation got away from me.

He said ok. I asked if we're still friends, he said, "Of course! We're not enemies!" Then I said, "I don't want to make you uncomfortable." Him: "You're not." (smiling)

So I was still kind of stressed out, and feeling stupid/disppointed/like I ruined everything etc.

Anyway, we ran into each other again today (running into each other randomly is unusual; I don't know what God is up to, if His hand is in this! This always seems to happen when I have something nerve-wracking that I feel I should say or do). So, back to my story, again it was v. quick. We are all really busy right now. But he said hi first with a smile and then stopped to chat for maybe five minutes. I was making photocopies and he was getting ready for class. Everything seems fine b/t us.

I am going to submit this so I don't erase it and continue. Don't reply yet!

[princess_nic]

Okay, some thoughts:

I am back where I was a couple of weeks ago, WRT this guy, and that is a good thing, i.e. we are back to being friends w/ no pressure. I was feeling so down b/c I had wanted to hurry things along at MY desired pace, but we all know what a good idea that is! I am stressed myself w/ D negotiations and work, so I really don't need to add anything more to my plate either.

I have NOT screwed up royally and ruined any chance we have.

I appreciate his honesty and will respect his boundaries and NOT be angry at him! I just realized last night that I was mad at him for not being ready for a R. How respectful is that, lol?!

I do not know where this will go. This is a special man and we really get along well, but we do not know each other well enough for me to say more than that. The term ends in six weeks, and then we may or may not see each other in the summer - that will be his call.

I will not close myself off to other possibilities, but I recognize that I am very vulnerable right now, and I need to focus on myself right now.

Freakin' patience!!!!!

Thanks for thinking of me,
Nicola