12/9/19 My husband told me he isnít happy in our marriage. Heís interested in someone else. He wants to move on. Told me hasnít cheated. Our sex life has been no existent for many years. I just came to terms with the some sexual trauma that happened to me when I was little. And Iíd push him away instead of having sex. Iíve recently started counseling for this. In the meantime, I found he has had an affair. Now we are talking about separating so he can figure out what it is he wants. Weíve been married 20 years and together for 26. My heart is broken. I knew the sex thing had to bother him , but he never talked to me about. He just pretended he was ok with it. And now here we are. Weíve started discernment counseling. On top of it all. I think heís going through a bit of a midlife crisis.
I found out about the affair just a little over a week ago, and keep hearing Iíll never get over it. Iíve read Divorce Remedy but still feel so lost. 😢 Heís still in the house but moved out of our bedroom, itís so awkward right now. I donít even know what to talk about. We have no children. He says he loves me but isnít in love with me anymore. Says. Iím his best friend, but he doesnít want to stay married. Heís been very wish washy. He said he wants to move out to see if he misses me and continue to work in the marriage. Iím trying to do the 180 but itís so hard when youíre so down. Any help would be appreciated.
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Get out and Get a Life (GAL).
Believe none of what he or she says and half of what he/she does.
Have NO EXPECTATIONS.
Take care of yourself, breathe, eat, sleep, exercise.
Take the parts of this advice that you need and don't worry if I have repeated something that you have already done.
Here are a few links to threads that will help you immensely:
Iím sorry KJ. It sounds like your H is trying to find a way to let you down easy. More than likely, he has been building up to this for a few years and in his mind, the worst is over. Heís told you and now heís trying to gradually sneak out the door. If you want to have any hope of saving your MR, you need to double down on LRT... GAL, 180s. Fake it until you make it if you have to. I know it is hard. Unfortunately there are no quick fixes. Keep posting. It helps. (((HUGS)))
Me 51 H 46 B/G Twins 11 SD19 Legal SA - January 2019 Divorce filed - June 2019 Divorce final - November 2019
Together 14 years Married 12 years BD1 - May 2014 BD2 - September 14, 2018
I am so very sorry for your pain. I know this pain well. My husband had and EA/PA for two years. It was so amazing that fireworks were sprouting out of every orifice and she was the most amazing thing ever. I, of course, was the opposite. I am working on detaching as well. Keep reading DB. Keep working on yourself. Understand you are at the beginning and that is the absolute worst. They are cowards and want to "not hurt you" but have fun also. Cake and eat it, too. There are many of use here to support you. Please remember that at the end of the day it's about him, not you. He is filling his own holes with this relationship. I understand you feel bad about the sex issues, but forgive yourself and let that be part of working on yourself. Don't let him manipulate you with it. Good luck, you can get great tips and support here.
the best apology is changed behavior. *************** me: 45 h: 48 m: 23 T: 26 DD1:19 DD2:16 DS:11 BD1: PA for 2 yrs 08/2016 BD2: OW is one of my closest friends 12/2016 BD3: H wants a D 11/2019