Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can

[marina7]

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forum...amp;Number=2805107&nt=11&page=11

My title Changed, as days keep going by, days become months
And months has become years.

I tell myself this constantly when am ready to just give up.

Keep on swimming, I think I can by Nemo also one of my favorite movie.

[job]

Thank you for linking your previous thread. I'll link your new thread to the previous one for you.

BTW, love your new title.

[marina7]

Thank you Job,

Is crazy my kids said this to me we where watching Nemo.
S9 said mommy your like Nemo
No Matt what you keep swimming.

I remember clearly trios all got up from laying down started dancing
I think we can I think we can.

Wow 1yr 7month we are here and God 1st and me not giving up hope in anything
Times get tough but a year ago today I wouldn't have thought I could have gotten this far.

I remember feeling like death. Now I can say Yes it hurts but all LBS will survive this.

Well s9 has chicken pox yes, I would have thought W would have brought me medication for s9
Or juices anything to show me I love my babies. Nope nothing. As I sit here and write is saddens
Me. Especially when kids are sick they just wanna be cuddles and snuggles. Another tough mild
Stone and W nowhere around. I don't think W will ever snap out of this.

Been keeping s9 comfortable he is not as bad but s9 is miserable. Poor baby
S10 and d10 been playing and making sure s9 gets lots of love.
D10 and s10 look at s9 as there baby. They spoil him so much

Since Friday been feeling like crap. Not sure if it's what W said but I am so sad.
But I know this is part of the process.
Well this process [censored].

Well s9 out of school for 15days. Gotta keep him away from kids or anything
I am sick with a autoimmune disease and is so easier for me to catch chicken pox
Even if I got vaccinated. But how do I stay away from my children who need me when they really
are sick. Praying I just don't catch that's all I can do.

Please pray for my little family so we can get through the next 2 weeks.

Remember everyone
One day at a time
One hour at a time
One minute at a time
One second at a time

[Kyh]

Hi Marina,

Sorry to hear your s is sick, I hope you both get to feeling better. I’m not surprised your w didn’t bring anything by. From my experience I would t be surprised if she blamed you too since she is deep in the anger phase.

In my case the GAL took a long time too, almost as long as possible. I know it seems like forever. Keep up the good work and take care of yourself too.

[marina7]

Kyh,

Well W didn't directly say it was my fault but ask around it.

W wth... how did s9 get that, where you been taking him. Blah blah...
M quiet.... just nodded and answered you know s9 is premature baby. And I will
Never know how he got.
W yeah your right

I honestly can say I no longer entertain W logic. Or her behavior or analyse W

I won't lie it hurt me that W doesn't care about our kids. But I also know
W is in a place she can't even take care of herself. So I just now nod and listen

At drop off W looks at me staring W says how s9 doing I said like
Any child he is miserable W replied I don't blame him.
W as she walking turns around and says you look tired , are you ok
I replied yes am ok.
W take care of yourself ok our kids need you...

Yelp to me this tells me W knows she is lost.

Well going to bed as I am really tired and getting ill myself.

I hope everyone had a good weekend.

[neffer]

Just don´t expect W to be logigal. She´s immersed on the sea of selfishness.

Sending my best wishes to you and your kids. Hoping S9 gets a soon recovery.

(((Hugs)))

[peacetoday]

Marina

Your kids see you-
You are the rock

they will develop their strength from watching you navigate the storms, especially this one-
always remember
every time they see you swimming on, letting go..standing tall..forgiving overlooking

working hard for them--they grow from you and will become strong adults from this

My 23 yr D
said this to me:
She is strong because of me
She perserveres and works hard and is a rock
I take no credit..this is her-
I did what I thought was best for my situation-

You do you and they will follow-

[marina7]

Thank you everyone,

Needed this today,

So I thought W was being to nice. Yelp she monster again

Sometimes I feel like I am going insane or crazy.

How can you be kind and nice...... and
Boom.... fire coming out her mouth.... f$&k.....
I am so exhausted really am...

So anyone that's been in mediation and kids have a GAL
All they want to see parents co parent as I have and W been the one
To not co parent.

But the last couple months I now tell W any events but also follow up
With text.
W always says you didn't tell me anything. I made plans.
I responded to check text as we agreed the trio's be in school event.
W says Nope your my lawyer said nope.

I simply didn't even replied
I honestly feel I am in another planet trying to co parent with W.

I am so mad at myself for thinking W wants to change finally I see
Her trying and boom when I less then expected, I feel like a bat hit
Me across my face.

I am so dum....

God I need peace..

[Kyh]

Hi Marina,

First off you’re not dumb, your w is trying to pull your strings. The best thing I did when my ex was doing this was to stay calm and consistent. It sounds like she’s being coached by her attorney. I used to have tons of screen shots of our text conversations so it was all documented. Ex would also try to make me look bad in texts, it was so obvious it was unbelievable.

Parent as you would by yourself or with a sane person no matter how she acts (don’t react) and document anything you think is relevant for the GAL but don’t nit pick.

I hope you and the trio are feeling better, take care!

[OneArt]

Email works well for dealing with these people. It is easier to save for a potential exhibit than a text and I think we tend to view email in a more formal way that is generally better served for things that others (like the GAL or the judge) may ultimately see.