Just learned H has accepted a position in Denver and is moving next week, had to hear it from a friend. I guess being in the same state as me was too difficult.
I guess it is time to file, let go and live my life. I know I will never hear or see him again which is the hardest part of all because I do miss our friendship.
I guess this is my punishment for letting go in the first place. I will always be remembered as the reason for all his failures.
I am just lost, 15 years ended up meaning nothing to him after all..so very sad today.
I never wanted him to hate me, I wanted him to love me and ends up that he was incapable.
Just reading that last post and it was a real low for me. Received 2 emails from H since last post 50% ugly and the 50% confusing. Decided to stay unemotional and detached. I tried dating, but have decided that I am not emotionally there just yet decided that I really just want to make new friends. Trying to find things that keep me preoccupied instead of dwelling on R.
Like the song goes, "Say something I am giving up on you..."
