I was very upset and had a hard time talking to my W the other day, my body language was horrible and I couldn't control it. She wanted to know what was wrong/up. I was so mad about the text and her not disclosing I did something stupid. I said something happened that I could not talk about. Something that has put me at a crossroads. Information landed on my lap. My goal was to make her think that the OM W contacted me.
Ever since then she has been non stop wanting me to tell her what it was. I said I cant talk about it and I was sorry I said anything. I have said it is over and not about her.
She says I cant trust her to tell her, and wont stop and is mad as hell and hurt.
I said it isnt about her and not about trust, that I cant explain.
I have done something really stupid and deserve to sit in my sh1t.
If you want to scold me, I deserve it.
I am wanting help to figure a way out of this.
IDK if I can be honest with her. I fu@ked up bad.
M46,W41 D16,D18 M22,T25 BD 11/12 W moved out 01/13 Piecing 10/13 Divorced 01/15 "Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
I understand if no one wants to help, I dont deserve it. I will leave after this.
M46,W41 D16,D18 M22,T25 BD 11/12 W moved out 01/13 Piecing 10/13 Divorced 01/15 "Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
you must like this drama. I mean, you have done the same cycle for 6 months.
I posted to you in January and you're in the same place.
You confess something you want to "own", then you show remorse and the desire to change
then you realize it means YOU must actually make the change,
and then you wallow in self loathing and defeatism so you can give up,
and talk as if you are on the ledge (which maybe you are, often, I don't know)...and then
you retreat only to come back with MORE confessions of screw ups and "woe is me" and
the pain is all around YOU even if you inflicted it onto others.
What an odd cycle to continue.
You seem to wallow, IN the wallowing...I don't get it. Really I don't.
in the LONG RUN, wouldn't changing your life actually be easier than this?
OR is this all you know?
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
I understand if no one wants to help, I dont deserve it. I will leave after this.
just so you know, ^^ this is blatantly manipulative.
Does it work in your real life?
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
M46,W41 D16,D18 M22,T25 BD 11/12 W moved out 01/13 Piecing 10/13 Divorced 01/15 "Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
I quit and yes by saying and doing that I am just what you say. This is all I know and I can't just take this advice and change in 6mo. Sorry.
M46,W41 D16,D18 M22,T25 BD 11/12 W moved out 01/13 Piecing 10/13 Divorced 01/15 "Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
I quit and yes by saying and doing that I am just what you say. This is all I know and I can't just take this advice and change in 6mo. Sorry.
M46,W41 D16,D18 M22,T25 BD 11/12 W moved out 01/13 Piecing 10/13 Divorced 01/15 "Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
you must like this drama. I mean, you have done the same cycle for 6 months.
I posted to you in January and you're in the same place.
M46,W41 D16,D18 M22,T25 BD 11/12 W moved out 01/13 Piecing 10/13 Divorced 01/15 "Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
