thanks for checking in... I have to file (have filed) b/c W has not met her financial obligations and it's beginning to affect my family and their credit.
I would hold out if I could, but it's no use anymore. I have moved on in many ways, distanced myself, taking classes, focusing better, actually happy again...but I do still have a deep love for my W...
I will always have that, and I realize she is no longer that person.
I did not contact her friends and family...perhaps the first true impulse control I've exhibited.
I am fearful that the legal matters will invoke some type of response...I am not relying on it, but I fear it will.
If that happens, I need to curb my love for W b/c it will be too late.
Anyway...we have not spoken in a while and I am not looking to speak w/ her. Seeing her Tues was enough to still cause me great pain, so I know that means something and I am not interested in more pain.
It's all pointless to me, but obv I see things much more clearly now. I put up w/ far more than most would, w/ and open heart, understanding, and unconditional love.
