feel like giving up - talk to me!

[luvless]

I'm having weird emotions today...almost like numb but not...I think everyone's prayers are giving me a sense of peace...hmm

[luvless]

well there went my peace lol - sh*t I think it's gonna be a bad night...

Luv is preparing for some bad stuff

[Gnosis]

It will only be as bad as you allow it to be.

[luvless]

I think this time it's he that will allow this to be bad.

[mindfull]

Luv, how did it go last night? I see you're awake already!

[SoldierDad]

Luv,
only you can allow those bad feelings to creep into your mind. Replace those bad thoughts with good ones. You can do this. My thoughts are with you today.

Detach

LIVE

[luvless]

I am awake mind...how in the hell cannot I not be? I haven't slept peacefully in a long a** time! (that was a really sarcastic tone there)

H came home at 9:50..never came home that late. He said he was with a friend (that checked out) but I did call him on it. I said, "it's very disrespectful of you not call or have the courtesy to say you won't be home for dinner." He said, "I didn't wanna call" in a sarcastic tone. He told me he met a friend (this is a divorced friend who is giving him really shitty advice) this is the friend I believe is telling him he can come stay with him if he wants to leave.

Anyway...I just went to bed and he came in right after. This morning cold as ICE. I'm sickened with his attitude already...enough is enough. He is dragging this on is how I see it.

I just keep praying God gives me patience and strength cuz I need it more than ever.

Today I will spend my day searching for attorneys and a counselor - for me and kids.

G - my list for today

1 - obvious I have to find these professionals!
2 - run on the treadmill to get my heart pumping
3 - dinner with a friend tonight

I don't feel like doing ANY of these things but I'm going to do them!

[Gnosis]

(((Luv))) I know you don't feel like doing them... but believe me you WILL feel better after you have done them.

Can you post your boundary here so we can provide some feedback and tailor it?

[motherof3]

(((Luv)))

G is right. You may not feel like doing anything on your list, but you will feel 110% better once you start. Baby steps.

[luvless]

I need opinions....as a last resort I was going to ask H to go to counseling. I really don't want to go because I don't see traditional therapists doing it for us. I do however think a couple DB sessions MAY helps us.

What do you guys think? Should I ask H to join - he may be open to it.