I needed that Kind. Thank you for your quick reply. Since he left this morning, I've been wavering and shed a few tears. I'm listening to what my thoughts are about & at the heart of it, they're back to my fear about letting go of a past "comfortable" life and being alone. This just shows how the mind plays tricks. I've not had a comfortable life for at least 9 years since his drinking increased and responsibility in the home decreased. Since he left, I've felt the urge to text him & say it was a shock & let's meet to discuss further. Your post has reminded me NOT to immediately act on urges. Time is my friend.

Thank you so much Kind, it's been a while since I've really needed validation from this community but I certainly needed & appreciated it today.