Hi guys, thank you so much for the posts, I sure appreciate the feedback.
I was definitely feeling very, very anxious at the time of locking the keys in. Mainly because I knew I had no food with me. I did go through a scenario in my mind, of how I could obtain food if it became necessary. Lately, I am having blood sugar lows that are sometimes undetectable to me at first. I know this was on my mind.
He was defintely concerned about getting to work late, and did express that to me right off. We do not have AAA but I am going to look into that right away. The officer who opened my door suggested that also.
I do think you had really good points Ellie. I was thinking some of these things myself, except for the 'proving his love' thought. Maybe I am doing that subconciously?
He is definitely does not do reassurance well. I do feel some of this is my doing, and I also feel that alot of times he doesn't step up to the plate when I need help, instead blows me off to my own devices, while I try to be there for him when needed. Sometimes I just want someone to lean on.
It is so nice to have others to bounce this off of. Thanks!
FYI, you can generally add roadside service to your auto insurance more cheaply than getting AAA. And, in my experience, the response time is faster. I think this is because the vendors get more money from the insurance company than they do from AAA for making calls. So, the AAA calls become lower priority.
P.P.P.S. As for emergencies, you can walk into just about *any* business, and they will have sugar that they will be happy to give you. They have sugar because somewhere there is bound to be a coffee pot.
I felt I should address some of your questions on the insulin issue as I specifically asked her to post about her medical problems.
She has many more than that one and she deals with them awesomely on a daily basis. Some days I know she almost can't walk and I don't even recall what all her health concerns are just that they are multiple and the doctors still aren't sure of what all is wrong.
She hasn't shared and I think it is that new feeling of how do you get started, a lot of the issues going on with the marriage. The incident shared just happened so was topmost in mind.
I think Ellie has a great take on a part of this and as I told my friend this bb is great for pointing out perspectives that you might not notice otherwise but there is a lot more to the story and I know folks can only give advice on what is posted.
We just have to get a newbie used to talking first!
Hugs girl no one attacks people here. I know you will be thinking of that other bb but this place is full of wonderful, caring, understanding people. I promise read anything with an open mind it is meant in the best possible way.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
I only mentioned the diabetes, as one reason I felt pretty anxious after locking in the keys. I don't mention my illnesses to anyone other than my friends and family. My purse was also in the vehicle. There are no fast food resaurants on that square at all. I am able to shut my pump off and did so, while waiting for the officer to come out of the hearing.
The affair.. really isn't anything I think about any longer. I feel like I am in a healthy place with it.
I was pregnant with my second child, when my H decided he felt 'overwhelmed' with a house payment and another child on the way. He moved out while I was pregnant and moved in with Ow. They enjoyed closing the bars at night. He wasn't present when I gave birth to second son, but we reconciled several months later.
In my humble opinion, the last thing I would ever think of myself is a bellyacher. I have went through things, that when I look back, I can't even understand how I did it. But I know it has made me stronger.
Maybe I am not adequately describing the situation, I dont' know. Maybe its just easiest to say I was in the wrong. Which of course, I see things that I did. I should have answered the phone calls.
I felt that, once my H knew that the police were going to be of no help, and of course knowing we do not have AAA, and that my purse was in the car, he should have found the keys and drove them over to me. Or asked someone to, since he had to go to work. I know that is what I would have done. I didn't answer his following phone calls, because I knew I felt angry at his previous reponse, and didn't want to say something in anger. So I felt it was best to settle a bit, and then talk.
that's why I can analyze your sitch - could have been me!