Looking backward...but only to move forward FOUR

[sage]

H2H!

(1) I thought you said in paragraph 2 that this was "cutting Sage...some slack" week!

yes, that started YESTERDAY! I was describing two days ago!!LOL!

(2) BRAVO! I don't see it at all as big whiny bad DB'ing Sage at all. You have given it much consideration, and it remained something that was bothering you. You do need to be able to be honest with H. and tell him when things are bothering you.

Thanks for this...h is certainly going out of his way to be reassuring!

(BTW, I did some real life shopping yesterday...a few things for mom and stepmom for mother's day and a blouse for my interview!)

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h had his exam last night...I met him afterwards for a drink. We were both tired, I think, but h is clearly relieved to be done with 1 of the 3! He was up bright and early this AM, heading back to school for more studying! I'm picking him up at the train tonight and we're going to go for a hike.

I'm dragging a bit this week...it's funny...stress (work, school, job interview stuff) doesn't make me run around like a chicken with my head cut off anymore like it used to...but it seems to depress my system...I'm dragging and tired and feeling sort of "dull". I keep picturing the perfect remedy and it's all about laying down in bed with comfy pillows and either a book or h for a good conversation (ok, who am I kidding! a good conversation and ... ). I don't see total relaxation occuring in the next 6 days but after that, look out!!!

It probably doesn't help that I took cold medicine for my allergies on an empty stomach this AM! Where is the YAWN Graemlin???

Sage

[psluke]

Hello Sage,

Hope you get that relaxation soon.

[sage]

Just journalling...

I took the day off yesterday so I could work on my homework. It went well, I think...I got the bulk of my paper done. I have to take graphs and ideas from my paper and make it into a powerpoint...I'll do that tomorrow. Today I did a little bit more messing around with my model so I'll have to document that in my paper eventually, too. All this is due on Weds. I'm actually feeling more "with it" than it probably sounds.

Last night we went to the North shore for fried clams and ice cream. It was our "romantic" date night that h had planned and it lived up to its billing. We had a good time.

Tomorrow we're having a mother's day brunch for my mom, h's mom and dad and my sister and her family. This morning we ran about 6 errands -- shopping, bakery, etc, etc. It took us hours but h was right there with me. I thanked him a few times and then after we got home thanked him again. He said "I don't think I've ever realized how much work it is to do this kind of stuff. I don't like thinking of you doing it alone". Very nice!

He's downstairs cooking right now...he's making the potato side dish for tomorrow.

Tonight it's chinese food and the celtics. Go Green!

I think I need to listen to "M&V" again...I'm hearing myself lapse into crappy patterns again and it's bugging me...and, oh yah, for future reference (that is, when I'm done with school)...h complained about the way I put stuff into the fridge...he said it was extremely inefficient and he wants to break me of the habit...a reminder to me to clean out the fridge after school is out and rearrange stuff. I think it's a small task to show h that I hear his complaints.

Gotta run!

Sage

[Hopeful_Scared]

Hi Sage,

Could you pass by my thread? I feel like giving up on the M right now. Any advice would be appreciated.

Hope

[slowly]

Hi Sage - Sign me up for that window shopping trip

for future reference (that is, when I'm done with school)...h complained about the way I put stuff into the fridge...he said it was extremely inefficient and he wants to break me of the habit...a reminder to me to clean out the fridge after school is out and rearrange stuff. I think it's a small task to show h that I hear his complaints.

This is an excellent reminder for us all - that it is not just the 'big' stuff that deserves attention, sometimes these little things can go a long way to making our partners feel cherished.

So, how did the greens do?

Slowly

[sage]

Hey Slowly!

So, how did the greens do?

They got trounced! I'm not all that familiar with basketball so I wasn't expecting much...but it was fun to watch while it lasted. I think we'll watch some more of the playoffs but without the Celts in it!

Yesterday was busy -- mother's day brunch for mom, sis and her family and h's parents. Everything came out great, I think and it seemed like people had a good time. After everyone left we cleaned up for a bit and then I did homework ... I asked h to look at my presentation and he gave me some really good feedback that I just took all wrong (snippy and a bit jerky).

He went in the other room and after a few minutes I went in and apologized. He said "I don't think you've ever made me feel better than right now. I was feeling terrible because I realized you hadn't asked for my opinion!" I felt like an A$$. How is it that I can get so jerky????? arrgh. But, he was great and all was well.

I feel like my brain is on overdrive lately -- thoughts churning through it and lots of them are self-flagellating. I need to do a better job of thought stopping and doing some self-talk.

I've got school tonight -- as h said "the penultimate class!" (last one is Weds.)

Sage

[minnie1]

Hi Sage,

Just checking in with you this am....how are you doing?

Everything ready for your LAST day of school?!?

Minnie

[psluke]

Hi Sage,

Hope tonight goes well and CONGRATULATIONS!

[sage]

Minnie and Pam,

thanks for checking up on me! The paper is done, the project is done and the presentation too! I need to work on my "script" for my presentation so I'm going to do that this afternoon. I'll be presenting around 7pm so good vibes please!!!

I'm pleased with the way things have turned out. The project has turned out to be quite interesting...I wish I had done more earlier because it's only now that I'm thinking "I could do this" or "I could do that" but, well, school's over! I suppose I could do it in my spare time!

Things at home are good. h has an exam today so he's pretty nervous. He's done a lot of studying, though, so I think he should be well prepped. He has his last exam next tuesday! hooray!

I'm pretty befuddled with work and school today so if I don't get to visit you all I'm sure to have more time tomorrow!

Sage

[ValerieA]

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Sending those positive vibes! Good luck to you!

JV