Oh how I feel for you with being tired . Sending lots of love your way . You will be a different person and actually already are whether you see it or not .
The are you alive comment …. Your H made , try looking at it a different way . Those type of texts are touch and go’s. More for him to still see if you have your hand on that rope .
When it comes to GAL pick things or people you truly enjoy or something you have wanted to do . My big struggle was GAL . I do not do well nor do my kids with time away and I have that view of they are only kids for a moment . I learned to embrace it . It’s me . I just love on my kids . Little example I travel a lot with my children . I like it . They like it . After BD I had a trip planned prior . Hell would freeze before I canceled on my kids . I hopped on the airplane didn’t even say good bye really and left . You think I texted that man when I landed . Nope . You think I told him I got to hotel . Nope . Eventually I got a mass of texts and phone calls . H was surely shooken up . Did I answer , yup later on . Said kids good . I needed the break mentally . Maybe not DB style but I thought you got everything you wanted . Alone in the house you said you were gonna move out of . You got no one standing in your way . Take anything you like . No argument here I’m not even there . You think he left . Nope . The point is when you get off the rollercoaster it’s not easy , I still struggle most days but just try . They kinda almost have to crash and burn while you sit back just doing you if that makes sense . Sometimes they have to crash over and over again .
I think many of us have felt like a doormat . You are doing really well , give yourself just a little credit . Balance . You can be kind but also have stern boundaries .
I’m fairly new here but I feel like we might be feeling the same things. My H has been super nicer than usual lately and it’s so confusing. One second he’s telling me he will be out of the house by summer and the next he will be doing all the laundry. I’m starting to see it as his guilt but it’s mind boggling.
Rainbows and unicorns. Yep that’s what I think my H thinks he’s heading off too and leaving the kids and me behind.
