I appreciate when one from back when I wandered these streets shows up at my DB pad. I thank you for the kind words and following up on a fellow DB�er that has come through the thick of it and standing tall.
I pray your 2018 is off to a great start and that you are doing well.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
Yes! 2018 is starting of A-OK so far. Been a whirl wind actually!! Trying to check off some of those goals... I'm getting there! I think I need to pick it back up a bit though...I've been slacking.
I last saw EX (that is weird to type after typing WW for so long!) on x-mas for a few minutes. Our contact is few and far between now. I never have the urge to contact her. She contacted me about taxes since this is the first time we would be filing seperatly. Somehow she ended up owing close to $2k. whoops! I guess that was because I was taking most of the tax burden when we were married. I'm not sure.
I hardly think of her. The only time I find myself drifting back is when I am throwing myself a mini pity party. Obviously things ended poorly but I think there was a lot of good in our relationship too. I still think we could have had something great if she didn't go to loony town every few years... we had a lot of the same interests. But I know this is a cycle that will not end so I have let it go. It is freeing actually!! She dominated my life for 20 years! Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and be a fly on the wall in her brain... just to see how she was processing things.
The odd thing is I have no desire to date... zero. Is that normal? I mean it has been 2.5 years! I poke around the dating websites and it seems like 95% of the woman are the same. Living in a tiny town isn't helping there. My personality is pretty laid back and chill. So I am not sure if that would be considered a negative early on in dating??? hmph! Maybe I need to find a mid 30's dating advice forum.. HA!
Felon pops up every now and again to bother me. I don't know what the deal is with that guy. I literally don't care one bit about him. Might just have to bite the bullet and have a chat with him next time.
I found your comment about no desire to date interesting as it is also happening to me. And the funny thing is that I actually get a LOT of female attention now that I am in "no desperation" mode. I LOVE being single, in fact I love it so much, I wonder will I ever desire a longterm relationship again. I suspect I will, once I meet the right person.
I focus on my kids, I focus on my photography, I focus on my job and on my sports and travels. And that's plenty for keeping me busy. I also have 0 desire to interact with my EX, I mean I have no problem interacting when it comes to the kids, but other from that 0. And I am fine with it. We coparent amicably and I will be forever grateful for that, esp. when I read on these boards how bat$hit crazy some exes can be.
Hey ya Vap! Yea it is a weird place to be in. I too get some attention, but I never act on it. I just don�t feel like it. I am sure the girls get tired of my act. Maybe next time someone suggests meeting up, I�ll just go and give it a try. Besides that though, I am more than happy where I am at.
I do have a bit of an issue but though. My life�s dream is to have a happy family. Money, power, lots of friends etc is all secondary...I know that for sure now after all of this. So I have to start building that somewhere. Of course my fears are that I end up a miserable old man myself or end up in a terrible life long marriage like my parents. I don�t worry about these things, I just let life flow but those are my dreams and fears.
Anyway, we will see how it all plays. 2018 has already been interesting for me and I�m looking forward to the rest of it!
