New development. H sent me a link to an article related to my aunt's illness. Very random and the 3rd helpful thing he's sent in 2 days. Could he be coming out of the fog? Trying to keep expectations low and stick to my plan.
Me53 H48 M 13 No children together BDMay '15 PA June '15 H moves out,files 8/15 wants "quick divorce" but does nothing Me sending proposal 12/15, court dates upcoming
New development. H sent me a link to an article related to my aunt's illness. Very random and the 3rd helpful thing he's sent in 2 days. Could he be coming out of the fog? Trying to keep expectations low and stick to my plan.
That certainly is interesting. I know that the way my mind works I would certainly be a little excited...but then again I tend to get my hopes up. I would say keep doing what you are doing, but what do I know?? Haha. You are doing awesome!
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
Thanks Evil. I must keep my focus on detaching, GAL and my goals.
Me53 H48 M 13 No children together BDMay '15 PA June '15 H moves out,files 8/15 wants "quick divorce" but does nothing Me sending proposal 12/15, court dates upcoming
I just had a bad thought. Weird that H would stumble across an article on a treatment for Parkinson's disease. Mabye OW really does have a terminal illness and it's Parkinson's. Ugh. I hate this.
Me53 H48 M 13 No children together BDMay '15 PA June '15 H moves out,files 8/15 wants "quick divorce" but does nothing Me sending proposal 12/15, court dates upcoming
So you don't know what OW's illness is? I just had a bad thought. Can you imagine that you are dying and one of the last things in your life that you do is to steal someone's husband and destroy a marriage? How unbelievably sad.
Photo, I don't know for sure. I did not ask. I suspected she had Lupus because she it was an organization she was affiliated with on FB and because my H has been researching Lupus on his computer.
This morning my H sent me an text with information about a Parkinson's treatment for my aunt. My aunt actually has Alzheimer's. Anyway. It made me wonder how he stumbled on an article about Parkinson's.
I can't image uprooting myself and destroying two families as my last act either.
The trouble is if H does come out the fog and realize he's made a mistake, if he going to leave a seriously ill person? Welcome to the crazy train.
Me53 H48 M 13 No children together BDMay '15 PA June '15 H moves out,files 8/15 wants "quick divorce" but does nothing Me sending proposal 12/15, court dates upcoming
The trouble is if H does come out the fog and realize he's made a mistake, if he going to leave a seriously ill person? Welcome to the crazy train.
You sound a lot like me, Beckyb. Try not to read into it and take it for what it's worth - at least that is what I have been told many, many times! The fact that he is sending those to you is interesting indeed...I won't speculate as to what any meanings may be, but it certainly is worth watching. That is, if you want it to be.
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
No additional communication from H. I really didn't expect anything. I'm trying to mentally refocus on moving on as if the D was final. I have asked my self what I would do it there was a 5% chance of reconciliation. Trying to make decisions based on that.
I'm really struggling with loneliness and mourning the loss of my best friend. I'm working on staying busy and building new friendships.
Me53 H48 M 13 No children together BDMay '15 PA June '15 H moves out,files 8/15 wants "quick divorce" but does nothing Me sending proposal 12/15, court dates upcoming
What does all this mean??? As you know last month H accused me of dragging my feet on D and told me he planned to marry OW just to make sure I knew the M was over. Since then he has asked to talk to me a couple of times. I didn't want to see him so I put him off. Tonight he finally texted me to say he believed I intentionally destroyed some of his stuff while I was packing it up and he said that marrying OW because he was mad and he wanted to hurt me. And he hoped that the rest of this hard time for both of use would be better. WTH?
Of course I didn't destroy his stuff. I told him I was sorry his stuff got ruined but I didn't do it. He said if that was true to forgive him for being hateful. And to call him if I needed to.
I told him it was true but didn't say I forgave him.
How does he think confessing this will make this better for me? Does this mean he does plan to marry OW or he made it up to hurt me? Does it really matter?
Good grief. And now he wants to come over and get some of his things from the basement.
Me53 H48 M 13 No children together BDMay '15 PA June '15 H moves out,files 8/15 wants "quick divorce" but does nothing Me sending proposal 12/15, court dates upcoming
Oh, Becky. I really understand the pain and confusion for you.
The only thing I can remind you of is that the WS is often more confused. They run around, making crazy choices, and destroying everything in their paths. I wonder if they just don't think at all?
It is so confusing and difficult to deal with. Hang in there...I'm here for you!
