Part 11 - contents may be different than

[gan]

Hey Edz. I read your post a little earlier in the day but wanted to take some time to read it again. Big day for you! I agree with everyone that the exchange with W seems to have been quite positive. It's great that your R with son is improving. It's even more great that W can see that it's improved (especially knowing the situation from early on). Interesting observation on the codependency thing.

If you are anything like me then you'll feel ok for the few hours after the meetup, then dip into a low over the next couple of days as your head processes everything that she said, what you could have said etc. Just remember that in the moment you felt that it was a good day....anything else is your head playing tricks on you.

[edz]

Hi all

Thanks for the comments. No plans on dating yet time will tell when and if I should start. G you're right on the feelings dont know if I got that over in my post but did slump when they went seemed so close yet so unobtainable at the same time...sigh.

The thing is still the thing no idea what she plans to do nothing I've seen or heard that its progressing and no discussion with her on it one way or the other. Maybe an impulse that then went or maybe contemplation no real idea. I'm not obsessing as the state isn't changed by it, maybe timeframe on her decision is but who knows on that.

So getting on getting on. Work today calling my dad tonight with a view to getting these chairs tomorrow and seeing gyms at the end of the week.

Jim I think you're right on your comments, no plans at all and as I say the profile wasn't my idea and is down. Unless I'm Fated to meet someone nothing planned to change. Certainly wouldn't be moving fast if it did happen.

[gan]

(yes you did convey the slump - but I get confused with the time zones so temporarily couldn't figure if it is the same day for you or no)...doesn't matter. Stick with it. It was a good day.

[Ggrass]

Edzs I think if you meet someone its best to meet people in your daily circle.

I'm meeting some thru work and mutal friends. The cute dude was a work mate of someone I worked with and also a customer. Rhc well he's been around forever but come back into my path thru work. The testicle dude well he's work besties high school friend, but known thru work as well.

[edz]

Hi G, it is at the mo, here its 11:13 monday morning, depending where in Australia you are it could be different times as well but I think its around 9:13 monday night(ish) if I'm right!

It *was* indeed a good couple of days, talk with s was a challenge but he seemed reassured afterwards and w & i can now help him with those worries, I felt happy (not that he was upset but that he could talk to me that way following how poor we had communicated in the past).

Yesterday was a good, fun family day and then the first time w aknowledged anything beyond her need to see if she could do things herself. Lots discussed (more than I jounalled or Id have filled the thread) but I didnt fall into pursuit or pleading as I would have done.

I did wake up this morning not anxious but wondering what w took away from the day and conversation. She seemed genuinely happy yesterday smiling laughing, joking with s and i and at my daft antics in IKEA (at one point I claimed all the bath mats where mine and she couldnt have one - my attempts to hold the entire crate failed though and I had to defer to allow her one!), was great to see her smile.

Very, very glad i've got some grip on detatchment though as today im fine if somewhat confused....although im often confused

[Ggrass]

That back and firths fairly common. Keeps happening to me. Although tonight I have a chat to a mutal friend, who talked of work h had done not being what h said it was.

He had done a job without doing a part of it. Bit odd, means he is lieing to others not just me. Shows h is doing the wrong thing by others it wasnt just me.

The other friend was relieved I had an inkling. I did also warn friend it's his choice who he gets work for him, but given h also is doing a couple of other weird things, which I explained. he took me seriously which was really nice and one of the few who have looked at h actions without dubbing me crazy nasty etc.

These sorts of things make you realise and help you detach. That's it's not something you did or didn't do. It's them.

Time on the blue ball for me and gan is about 10.30. I need to remove war paint I'm a bit tired today so need to race that clock to bed.

[edz]

Morning Gg

For some reason it never seemed to work (well) for me through circles.

Before meeting w I had a couple of r's through people I knew through (but not at) jobs or friends etc but they didnt really go anywhere.

Probably a combination of being introverted a little shy (back then anyway not so much 16 years later).

For now Im not actively looking but who knows what will happen, w may want to try or may get swept off my feet (unlikely, that may require a fork lift)

[edz]

Night GG have a good one.

[Ggrass]

Your not that bad to need a forklift, everyone has good qualities.

Yeah, I need beauty sleep, otherwise my under eye suitcases will be packed for a uk trip. There is only do much you can cover with concealer!

[edz]

Oh yes?

Where in the uk?

lol