Working more on me!

[oldtimer]

That's wonderful Mish.

Notice: people can love us until we let them.

If you seek not to be selfish, then let Gabe continue to have opportunities to be a loving partner and a genuine contributor to the relationship.

Shutting down and hiding cheats both of you.

[whatisis]

When I came home from the gym he had bought me flowers and a car and wrote something beautiful in it. My heart shut the heck up.

He bought you flowers and a car?! I love typos lol.
Hey, there's nothing wrong with having a feeling and sharing it. That doesn't make you anything less. Honesty is important in a relationship, is it not? (That's what women's dating profiles keep telling me anyway lol). Stop putting yourself down because you feel something. You shared it and he stepped up. Fantastic! Grow with it

[SunFunOne]

Ha ha - he bought you a "card" I assume - not a car (although that would be cool). Ya know - this restored my faith in Gabe. I do not know him - but I do understand how important the date is to you. And so does he. And I am GLAD you let your guard down. And he did a good thing.

I really hope you guys can communicate and this helps him understand a bit more.

I think about this and I totally get where you are coming from. I'm glad you posted this.

Barb

[mishka422]

LOL! A car definitely would have been cool but, alas, it was a card. Very sweet. He told me in the card that he is sorry for the bad times in the past but hopes to make good memories for us in the next 20.

Apparently he is planning on sticking around for the next 20! Even if he doesn't, at least it isn't a pre-planned exit. That is reassuring.

The plantar problem in my left foot is finally easing up so I'm hoping I can ramp up my cardio a little more. Loving the swimming though. Great exercise and I don't get sweaty. LOL I don't love to sweat even though I like to work hard. Go figure.

[SunFunOne]

Mish: that car speaks volumes. I'm pretty sure he does plan to stick around. As you say - a departure is not planned but remember - there are no guarantees in life. That applies to everyone.
Be happy. Don't spend your life waiting for the other shoe to drop.
I'm glad your foot is better
Barb

[whatisis]

Mish, you were quitting smoking a while ago. How's that going?

[mishka422]

It's not. I made it 6 weeks and fell off the wagon. I'll get back to it but not right now. Too many other things I'm working on. I'm afraid if I add one more I might explode!

[whatisis]

Wow, six weeks is huge! How'd you go that long? What was workin' for you? One step at a time. You'll do it eventually! I did.

[mishka422]

I absolutely know I can do it!

What was working for me then? I honestly don't know. Sheer willpower I guess. I ran out of steam when I knew I was going to be in the car for a very long ride and I broke.

I'll find a way through this. I just know I will!

Thank you for your kind words and encouragement Wii!

[mishka422]

Just venting! According to a calculator for the 'affordable care act', based on my income, my out of pocket cost for the minimum required coverage (which is basically catastrophic coverage only with a massive deductible and no real primary care)is nearly $400 a month. I don't make enough to even cover my day to day expenses and now they are telling me I have to pay $400 out of my pocket every month for coverage that is no coverage at all or pay fines to the government for not having it. It's less expensive to pay the fine than to pay for the miserable coverage. This is beyond stupid!