25, right now you are my rock that keeps me going. I love everything you have to tell me. I like that you don't sugar coat things, you say it like it needs to be said.
I have been doing thinking about new things that I want to try. I have had a guitar that has been sitting for about 5 or 6 years, I'm going to take some lesson.
At first when I was with the boys alone, they drove me crazy always wanting to do this or play that. At first I didn't care to, now I find myself enjoying it more and more.
I heard an ex wife once say it's as if she "got the crappy Practice husband' and the 2nd wife gets the 'new & improved guy' and THEY get to go off into the sunset with his newfound relationship skills and all his confidence and respectful behavior, that she never got but Taught him by leaving!!!" This will be her exact words if she does leave. LOLOLOL
I'm going to work on myself to make me feel good and set myself for joy in the future with or without her. I'm going to be the man only a fool would leave like you said.
Me and other family are trying a new camp ground and are going canoeing, something we never have done.
ME 31 / W 29 M 7 / T 13 S 3 / S 5 NOT HAPPY 11/11 BOMB 12/27/11 MOVED OUT 2/12 THINKS D WOULD BE BEST FOR HER 5/14/12 W Files D 6/24/12
I know how to hold a grudge I can send a bridge up in smoke And I can't count the people I've let down, the hearts I've broke You ain't gotta dig too deep If you wanna find some dirt on me I'm learning who you've been Ain't who you've got to be It's gonna be an uphill climb Aww honey I won't lie
I ain't no angel I still got a few more dances with the devil I’m cleaning up my act little by little I’m getting there I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see I ain’t as good as I’m gonna get But I’m better than I used to be
I’ve pinned a lot of demons to the ground I’ve got a few old habits left But there’s still one or two I might need you to help me get Standing in the rain so long has left me with a little rust But put some faith in me And someday you’ll see There’s a diamond under all this dust I ain't no angel I still got a few more dances with the devil I’m cleaning up my act little by little I’m getting there I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see I ain’t as good as I’m gonna get But I’m better than I used to be
I ain't no angel I still got a few more dances with the devil But I’m cleaning up my act little by little I’m getting there I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see I ain’t as good as I’m gonna get But I’m better than I used to be "Better Than I Used To Be" TIM MCGRAW
Bold is my favorite part of the song. I sing this like no tomorrow in the car on the way to work. Makes me feel good. This song is truely how a feel.
ME 31 / W 29 M 7 / T 13 S 3 / S 5 NOT HAPPY 11/11 BOMB 12/27/11 MOVED OUT 2/12 THINKS D WOULD BE BEST FOR HER 5/14/12 W Files D 6/24/12
I wasn't born knowing this stuff. I learned it...the really really hard way. So I'm happy to pass it on and hope you'll be less stubborn than I was.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
HAd a busy weekend and start to the week so I have been missing you guys. Trying to detach and move on, nut W is not making it easy. It is amazing that one day she will be cold, next talking to me about odd things. I just don't know how to read her, trying not to but can't help it. I miss her. Took the kids to an amusment park on Sunday with her stepmom and niece. She called her stepmom that night to see how things went.
Monday at my S t-ball game, we switch some clothes and showed her shirts that me and the boys got for vaction bible study. Then she stud by a friend of hers for about 20 mins, then came over and gave me some pictures, then went and stood by the fence by herself. Then she came back over told me about and old friends daughter that was on the other side of the field, then went and stood at the fence agian. Makes no sense.
I had IC yesterday, it went okay. The C said not to have my hopes up. The comment about an old friends D, is a little better she said, b/c before she couldn't remeber anything from the past. The C also aked if I think there is something missing with my W. I said yes, something is just not there. She said the samething, she is holding something back and not sure. I said maybe depression or post pardom depression that was not seen. not sure. Maybe IC with W will help W figure things out. We will see.
When I dropped the kids off to her yesterday, she was talk ative. was there maybe 8 to 15 min compared to 2 or 3. She also seemed to be happy and smiling.
SEE IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!!!!!
Then last night she tells her mom that I closed our credit card, which is good, one less thing she will have to split.
I'M LOST!!!!
ME 31 / W 29 M 7 / T 13 S 3 / S 5 NOT HAPPY 11/11 BOMB 12/27/11 MOVED OUT 2/12 THINKS D WOULD BE BEST FOR HER 5/14/12 W Files D 6/24/12
She gave me the "false hope" speech on several occasions.
Oh yeah, that's a popular one! My DB coach put it like this - they are convincing themselves of this more than they are trying to tell you that. If they didn't feel any glimmer of hope at all, they wouldn't have any hope to try to squash.
Originally Posted By: shockeddad on LITB's thread
jbnati, Could you explain that a little more. What the DB caoch said.
shockeddad, I'll do my best.
My DB coach said my W may have been looking right at me when she said that, but she may have really been talking to herself. She was feeling hope and she needed to tell herself there was no hope to keep herself on track. IOW, she had to squash that glimmer of hope she was feeling.
Thanks, that makes more sense to me. Think my W has been thinking about us. She has called other people to see what I have been doing. But, I think she is using anything to try and squash any hope she might have. Trying to tell herself this is the right thing to do.
ME 31 / W 29 M 7 / T 13 S 3 / S 5 NOT HAPPY 11/11 BOMB 12/27/11 MOVED OUT 2/12 THINKS D WOULD BE BEST FOR HER 5/14/12 W Files D 6/24/12
