All's well that ends . . . . . .?

[BeingMe]

Thinking of you during the storms outside and inside. Take care.

[punkin]

Guys,

The storms last night were amazing. I mean that in a loving Mother Nature kind of way. We were lucky, and the tornados didn't touch down, but they went right over my house. I was standing on my front deck, and the clouds were, there is no other way to put it, Biblical. It was like Charlton Heston parting the red sea kind of wondrous. Just as I decided I needed to go back and get into my hidey hole, the power went out, which is a good sign to take cover.

For all you who don't live in Tornado Alley, let me explain. It is best summed up this way: A very gentile lady who sits in front of me in church said that the tornado that touched down in Mena last Thursday night ( little old F1) disturbed some visiting relations she had from up North. They asked her what we did when the storms got this bad. She replied, "Go out and watch It". That's what us rednecks do.

I wish I could describe those clouds for you though. They were beautiful; so full of God's power. Long story short, it passed, and the sun came shining through for just a minute before sundown.

As my court date comes ever closer, I am feeling closer and closer to God. Does that sound strange? I believe in God, but I've never been the other thing we are known for in this area, a Bible Thumper. I see his work in more and more ways. Even in this situation I find myself in. I love my husband enough to let him go. To find his own way. I will continue to pray for him. I always will care, to the end of my life.

Sorry I am so long winded, but it has been a very odd couple of days. Just making my way one day at a time.

[TRUSTING]

Does not sound strange at all.... You are getting your strength from him, he will not let you down. I am amazed what he has done for me and what he continues to do. God has truly been my husband for the season and has provided for me in ways I could not have imagined. Letting go of our beloved spouses is a sign of faith and love.....

[BeingMe]

I have seen wondrous storms in various parts of the world. But the kind you get in St. Louis, MO ... wow! Very similar to Alberta, Canada. I love them, and you do see the hand of God in nature. I am sure, though, that those who get caught up in tornadoes, are not too happy with them.

Take care.

[punkin]

Never fails. Just when you think you have your emotions under control, WHAMO. Had awful nightmares and woke up with Post Herpetic Neuralgia - inflamed nerves following Shingles-usually brought on by stress. I swear, I'm beginning to sound like the Perils of Pauline. Just tie me to a train trestle and let the AFLACK Duck do his worst! Luckily, I keep the medication for when there is an outbreak. Haven't had to take it in over a year. Imagine that?

[beatrice]

Punkin, I had stress related excema just prior to the first divorce hearing, [which took place, but we had an adjournment, which is a book in itself!] Like you I felt a failure initially, but thre months post divorce, while i am still dealing with some sadness and loss at the waste, I actually feel great most of the time. I requested very nicely to my xh that we have no further contact, and he has respected that, which helps.

Apparently he is depressed!! Well he got what he wanted, and it seems we need to be careful what we wish for. I am not saying it is easy, but you will find reserves of strength because you are dealing with everything as it arises, and acknowledging it fully. I admire you greatly

[lily2011]

Amen Trusting! Thank you for the reminder!

[dl443322]

So glad you did not get much bad weather, Punkin.

It is natural to feel stressed as your court date draws closer. This is not where you chose to be.

The day will seem surreal. Then after a few days, there is sadness, but also a kind of relief.

You will get through it. We will be there in spirit and hold you in prayer, sweetie.

[AntoniaB]

Hey Punkin, I have gotten stress-related illness before too. It's amazing the power of the body to create illness. But guess what? That means there is also an inverse relationship. The body has just as much power to create healing and nurturing.

For you this means: you will probably stress yourself out incredibly on the days leading up to "the day", but....

You will sail through it as your body will carry you through the worst with dignity and poise and calm.

I have no doubt about this. And even if there is a moment you "lose it", that's only because that is your body's way of storing that energy to handle it all right afterwards.

You're a rock, Punkin. I don't know you in person--I might never meet you face to face. But there is no doubt in my mind, from your posts, that you are one of the strongest women I've ever encountered.

When you doubt yourself, we do not doubt you.

[punkin]

Thank you so much for the kind words; all of you.

It's so strange, being a strong woman was what my H admired about me the most, and now is what he seems to despise. How dare I be living my life and seemingly going on with it.

I haven't heard a word from him since the "truth darts" email two weeks ago. I have an appt. with my L next Wednesday afternoon. Battle strategy, I suppose. I spoke to him on the phone and he sounded as if we have no worries. I tend to try and not count my chickens before they hatch.

Beatrice's thread about the lingering hostility has me thinking. I had hoped that once the D was over, he might begin to realize I was not the cause of his physical/mental problems. Now I wonder if he will EVER stop blaming me. I know he blamed his first wife for things for years. His ruined credit, etc.Bad was all I ever heard about her. Now I wonder.

Still stormy and gloomy in my part of the world. Supposed to be that way all through the weekend. I know, come June-July, I'll be missing the rain and cool weather, but right now, I'm a bit sick of rain and thunderstorms. Too went outside to paint inside, too wet to do any yardwork. Just TOO WET!

If I forget to say it later, I hope everyone has a wonderful and Blessed Easter weekend. I have goody bags for my grands fixed up to take to the local ones, mailed to the others. Not much, just so they know that Grandma is always thinking of them.

Happy Easter. Oh, and KV - Loved the joke!