Hey Guys, Hope everyone is doing well!! I've kinda been in a funk the past week or so. Haven’t seen my S in about 3 weeks, but I know he's having fun with the grandparent’s back home and I talk to him as much as I can. W & I haven’t talked since she got locked out of the house.
Except when we had a few severe storms last week; she called me to tell me she didn’t know if I was around, but as W was going to meet another couple friend of ours for dinner however due to the weather she was heading back.
W didn’t know if she would be home in time to let our Great Dane out then just started talking and said sorry she was rambling. Well I called her an hour latter I asked how things were. W said got back a little while ago, thanks for calling.
I’ve been keeping busy, and hanging out with my friend (who’s going through with a legal separation process) as we try and meet up for happy hour every now and then. The last few times we’ve met up we both have had a good time even chatted with a few ladies.
Don’t get me wrong I’ve had fun I just get frustrated and miss the simple chats W and I use to have. I know patience is the key and this is not a sprint it’s just harder than usual this month.
Hey Guys, Thanks for everyone’s advice and support!! Well I'm not sure what to do now? I'm not done giving up hope as it seems to be getting less and less each passing day. I often ask myself why I still care? I don’t want to give up on us, but I have to accept the fact that this is her choice. I need to try and let go or drop the rope as I know I'm holding on thinking W will wake up from this.
See I feel sometimes in Life it's about screwing things up!! I guess that's what we’re here for, but it’s the things you screw up; and still have the courage to fight for which are the things that usually matter most. I read something the other day as I was writing a paper for school and got off track.
It's entitled: Moving On Forgiveness and letting go are steps on our road back to happiness. Without them we will never be free of our past. We deserve to move on. We need not be held hostage to our past if we are willing to release and grow beyond them. By: Tina Dayton
I just thought it made a lot of sense... Well as Our Anniversary approaches at the end of this month. It will suck, but I will get through and get through this in time as well.
I think my W will realize someday what she had in front of her was not that bad. It maybe a few months, or when and if the D is finished, or even a few years.; however I just don’t feel that we have given everything we could have and will always wonder why? This will suck; as we will always be in-contact because of our S until we die. Well I still have a little Hope in me.
Well Guys talk later and wish the best for everyone Hope!!
I hear yeah Hope, try and hang in there.. I need to listen to my own advise as well. I'm about giving up on hope and dont thinet think I will get another chance. I too Im left wondering what if, why etc.. Again keep your head and spirits up.
Mark
Me 36 WAW 24 S 4 D 2(My Kids/her step kids) S15,D14,S10,D11 Love you but not in love with you 6/8/2010 Left/Bomb 6/20/2010 D filed 6/23/2010 M 4 T 5 1/2
Hope doesn't have to match up with reality! Hope is a gift to us, to get us through tough times, to make the right choices.
Our actions are based on our values, not on emotions that can change instantly. We can control our actions, we can change the direction of OUR lives. That's the freedom that we're being offered when we truly let go. And this freedom scares us because we know the comfort and security of holding on to someone. But that's a mirage.
Hey guys, Any thoughts on how we continue to hope & work on the M!! As it seems that things are getting dimmer and dimmer. We all have to takecare of ourselves!! As we don't know what our future holds. I'm trying to detach it's just hard and I think no matter what happens I will always have some hope. Talk later hope
Hey guys, So after about 3.5 weeks my S is back home really excited. The thing is I tx W on thurs to let me know when he got him as I was going to suprize & visit him. I got nothing back not even when his flight landed (WTF) is with that!!!
So I'm pretty pissed about it cause she told me nothing except that his flight was early and that was 3 weeks ago. Well at least tonight I will show up at the house and suprize him. The ? I have is do I tellW that it wasn't right not getting back to me about our S. I hate this shi* cause I would of at least gotten back to her. I also would of had made sure my S would of called her when he landed not 3 hrs. Just upset any input would be appreciated thanks guys Later hope
