Into my arms... #70

[cw68]

Dizzy spells- lightheaded or room spinning? Fluttery heart beat?

I have had vestibular neuritis- antivert took care of that but sinus infections can bring on the vertigo.
Have had hypo and hyper thyroidism- both left me weak and have spells of dizziness. The hyper was accompanied with heart problems needing Inderal to treat.
There of course there is the dizziness caused from low blood sugar and eating protein and a carb pared together takes care of that.

Poor sleep can bring it on- always dizzy with severe lack of sleep.

Of course there are worse things like Lupus, MS, etc. acoustic nerve inflammation called vestibular neuritis (lasts about a year).


Only reasons I can come up with for dizziness at the moment- I know there are a millions reasons why.

If you are a worst case scenario thinker- no it could not be a brain tumor- very unlikely. Was a neuro nurse and the only tumors that start out with dizziness are acoustic neuroma's and they are not too common and you have to be a lot older. Otherwise all most all brain tumors are metastatic or primary and the primary always have seizures.

Good luck getting it resolved.

Not that I think in any way Kalni is suffering from this, but there are other tumors that can start out with dizziness as a symptom. My father was diagnosed last year with glioblastoma and the first indication that anything was wrong was dizzy spells. Glioblastoma is a cancer that affects only glial cells in the brain and doesn't metastasize.

However, Kalni, don't worry. Glioblastoma affects men (usually over 50) at a much higher rate than women. You're all good!

Ah, I read further and you mentioned gliomas. No, it's not fun.

[Kalni]

Ok, I am never talking about feeling sick on these boards again, you guys made me start thinking as if my time is short
(if it is, I will probably regret my 3 years of DBing and piecing...)

Some days are harder than others. H said something today that was so "pre separation" I was amazed. A moment from the past so clear that made me freak out. It was somethig ridiculous about the Bbq and he said something "when I say something cant you just accept it, you HAVE to just accept what I say now and then...". HUGE red flag there. Before he moved out he kept saying, "make me feel like a man" while he wanted to say "make me feel like she does". I cant explain but my antennas picked up something as if he misses how he got away with her, "being the man and all".
Tough luck, in this house, BS like that wont get him anywhere. Especially when it was really nothing. I couldnt understand what he was saying and asked for an explanation.

My dad still feels ok. My face looks horrible. Really. I didnt go out today at all.

My BGF came over with her kids and we chatted etc etc. Good girls' time. He was working today, changes his day off without telling me, we discussed it and I told him should let me know ahead of time and he agreed.

Didnt have many dizzy spells today, a little but nothing like the days before.

Considering quiting smoking. It feels beyond my powers, I cant even stop biting my nails, but I think I am ready to try. At the moment I read everything about what smoking does to ones body to get me disgusted. It's all in my head.

I still have so much anger in me. I have to find a way to let go of that. I was going through some tax papers today and saw the receipt of our kids bunk bed, 30/10/2006. I remembered the day clearly and he was so excited and we picked the colors out etc etc. He was seeing her for over 2 months... What an actor!

I've lost a part of my soul over this. I've lost my innocence, my faith in people. Sometimes the cynic comes out "if H could do that, then anyone could do that and worse". Thank God some of my dearest friends and my family with their actions, remind me that not ALL men are the same.
K

[hoosiermama]

...or it could be (and probably is) something relatively simple like vestibulitis or Meniere's disease causing the dizziness!

[flowmom]

Oh Kalni, there are a lot of worries now with your dad, your own health, and piecing. hugs to you. Reminders of the past don't mean that it IS the past.

[flowmom]

And maybe we could take the internet diagnosis to a different forum

[Virtually_Handsome]

(((((Kalni)))))
I'm glad you are seeing that all men are not like that! And that even some that are don't necessarily stay like that, we hope.

I don't know if there is anything I can do, but if I can give you ANY encouragement to quit smoking, I will do it! I just know you will feel a lot better in a lot of ways once you've done that!

[AliSuddenly]

Hey K! I am your friend and I would like to think you consider me an honest and reliable, trustworthy decent person (which I hope I am!) but... I had an EA/PA and I behaved badly, in ways your H did. Becuase thats what A's make you do, you do conceal things, lead a "double life" even, lie, to those you love and to yourself. It isnt the sum total of his personality, it isnt necessarily WHO he is, although it was back then, its just what he did. And he did behave badly, but then hopefully he has learned what matters to him now as a consequence of how he behaved (have you asked him that?)

and as for this "saw the receipt of our kids bunk bed, 30/10/2006. I remembered the day clearly and he was so excited and we picked the colors out etc etc. He was seeing her for over 2 months... What an actor!" - well, I expect he WAS excited about it. Men evenmore so than woman can lead a double life as they can compartmentalise hey.

I dont know what you can do about the anger. You do need to have more healing convos with H but I sense only after BOTH have you have let go of the negative emotions - him of how awful and shamed it makes him feel to discuss it and you your anger and resentments. You dont necessarily need to talk or have IC. How about get some acupuncture, or shiatsu or deep theraupeutic massage to let them help you release negative emotions and free you up?

I find tears rising when I have acupuncture and then I feel much better afterwards, it can be powerful stuff. ANd I'm gad you are not so dizzy now! Dont forget, with your Mum and Dad and H etc, you are under a lot of stress in fact, that you have learnt to "shoulder" but its bound to affect you physically?

xxx

[Lost Rabbit]

Ok just saw this and wanted to chip in, your dizziness may as simple as a inner ear infection which a good dose of antibiotics will fix.. Only had to nag my mate at work to get his checked out because he kept losing his balance and feeling dizzy. Go get it checked out (())

[john210]

Good afternoon Maria, I hope you are feeling better today. Like I have mentionned I have had similar bouts which were diagnosed to be vertigo...went away as quickly as it came...it can be very tiring.

<<I've lost a part of my soul over this. I've lost my innocence, my faith in people. Sometimes the cynic comes out >>
I believe you have called me a cynic (and worse) in the past. I think it is normal to feel this way. I have not lost faith in people. I lost faith in one person....call me naive.....but I believe there are good folks out there. I also believe some people can change.

[flowmom]

Sending hugs your way Kalni.