Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Party was great! Lots of good food, the best guests (Nathan, Sydney, and then Dan), good drinks, fun!
We played "Life", a bit complicated given the kids' ages but it was a Christmas gift they wanted to try out...kids watched ball drop at 11 (it was midnight in NY).
I leaned over to kiss Nathan and Sydney as everyone on TV was kissing for New Year's. Dan was holding [censored] so I leaned at him and he turned like he would kiss me on the mouth. I just tipped my head and kissed him on the cheek. So funny b/c a month ago I would have given a limb to get a kiss from him and then I chose to minimize it!
Dan kept hinting that he thought I would be 'out' tonight. I just said, "Yeah, I thought I might be too, but another time..." CA texted me happy new year around 8ish and I texted him back a reply awhile later, that was pretty much it.
Dan was on the phone on and off with his best friend Nathan talking about cattle. Apparently one of the ugliest bulls they have ever seen just had a half-interest sell for $50,000!! Dan said it was pretty much a case where a good salesman found someone with a ton of money, interest in cows, and no knowledge of quality. So the ignorant investor paid way too much for a crappy cow...
Anyway I told him I hope he has the same luck in Denver in a couple weeks. He and a partner are trying to sell a half-interest in a pretty good bull and they are hoping to get 'only' $15,000...
Oh well probably putting you to sleep with that story! I have bee cleaning/organizing all day and watching a "Next Iron Chef" marathon on tv. Making me hungry!!! May take myself out for steak this evening...
Got the message, Lotus.. Pondering more but I did reply...
Thanks K! It was a pretty happy new year...
Been cleaning like a crazy person today, trying to reorganize the house and feel focused before going back to work.
Something strange happened yesterday. I decided I really don't care if I lose my ELL job. I decided to ask BBJ what she really wanted to do with her life, and it is NOT teaching ELL.
Turns out like most other areas of her life, she has become great at fitting into holes that other people/schools have so that she can meet their needs, not necessarily her own! (Go figure...)
OK can't refer to myself in third person anymore, weird! Anyway I have tried to be as 'marketable' as possible for a long time, with all of our moves. So I take the jobs that are available. I thought about what job I have liked the most yesterday. I really liked early intervention (special ed. preschool for 3-5 year olds) and Elementary Resource (working with kids in remedial reading and math programs in grades K-3).
So I decided that I am going to focus on getting a job in one of those areas as soon as I can find one. It might be next year, or the year after. But I will keep focused on that career-wise. Good news is the two remedial reading teachers in my building are around 60 so they will retire soon. (There is an incentive for teachers in IA retiring around age 62)
My dream job would be more along the lines of helping out poor kids in dire straits, like the three I sponsor through World Vision. But I haven't found a job there that matches my skill set. They need professional fundraisers, accountants, etc more tha teachers! So I still get to help the underdog with a remedial teaching position.
Been working slowly through "Getting Past Your Breakup". It talks about how moving past the relationship allows you to make decisions for yourself for what may be the first time ever! (In my case for sure, marrying right out of college.)
To choose vacations, jobs, homes, life goals because they are truly what I want to do with my life, instead of being what fits in with my husband's life and career path, is going to be so new and different! I have already started down that line with the landscaping and some interior design upgrades. But there is so much more out there that I think I am about to discover.
OH, but for now I am still in the chapter on going No-Contact with your ex. (Except for talk about the children of course.) Turns out I need to re-iontroduce myself.
Hi. I'm Bobbi Jo. I am addicted to communicating with my almost-ex to keep our connection alive....
But I am sure if I will keep reading it will help me learn to STOP THAT!!!
Happy New Year all. Time to shower and get ready for a party...
Hi. I'm Bobbi Jo. I am addicted to communicating with my almost-ex to keep our connection alive....
Boy that's tough. It sounds like you guys at least liked to talk. I can imagine, as time goes on, fairly quickly getting to the point where W and I don't talk for weeks. She's so introverted she rarely calls anyone just to talk. She'll go months at a time without talking to her best friends. Only her mom and sisters speak with her regularly.
It will be weird -- it already is weird to be so distant.
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Hi. I'm Bobbi Jo. I am addicted to communicating with my almost-ex to keep our connection alive....
Boy that's tough. It sounds like you guys at least liked to talk. I can imagine, as time goes on, fairly quickly getting to the point where W and I don't talk for weeks. She's so introverted she rarely calls anyone just to talk. She'll go months at a time without talking to her best friends. Only her mom and sisters speak with her regularly.
It will be weird -- it already is weird to be so distant.
On the other hand, Dan and I talk on a daily basis, pretty much. Every other day for sure...he still hangs out here all the time, he has been here almost every single day from Christmas Eve until today, this is the first day I think that I haven't seen him in about 12 days...
This is going to be weird, uncomfortable, but...necessary...
