I'm still having trouble w/my left knee two years after my surgery, but only b/c my insurance at the time wouldn't extend my rehab benefits and I couldn't afford to pay for rehab myself.
However, you'll do fine and I do wish you to be back on your feet as soon as you can, my brother.
On the other note, I'm glad to hear you are staying optimistic concerning your S12 and realize that while you'll have your ups and downs w/his being so far away, ultimately you know in time he'll be back w/you.
Three years old? That is such a great age. Having the boys able to video chat is great! I remember when my D6 first did the video chat. She was so fascinated by being able to do it. Now, she'll video chat w/me when she's at XW's parents house in Indiana. It is great to get to see and hear her when she's away.
Best of luck on your surgery. You beat me to the punch, I'm not scheduled until October 15th. Use that headstart wisely; I'm planning on rehabbing quickly...
Best,
AlexEN
New: What a Weekend
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Hi everyone - thanks so much for the well-wishes! The surgery went well - and I'm already doing the rehab. The good news is that I didn't have any meniscus damage - so I can put weight on my knee - and can get into rehab quicker - that's a relief.
It's odd to be so immobilized - I feel little hints of madness tickle at the back of my brain every now and then - but I tell myself it's just the lingering effects of the anesthesia...hope so...
One thing that I find almost fascinating is that STBX has not once asked how I'm doing or how it went - or even said anything like kind - it's amazing how you can spend a decade of your life with someone - and then have them become more than a stranger - at least a stranger can still offer some compassion...which is not to say that I want her compassion or attention - it's just more of an observation of how far she has wandered from the person I thought she was...I would think that she would have some questions about my condition, given that it could affect matters concerning my S3 - but why should she suddenly exhibit a capacity to think beyond herself now, right?
I hope you are all doing well, my friends. I'm still feeling a bit scatter-brained...which is odd...perhaps it's just because I did not sleep last night...hm...
Glad to know you are recovering well. I'm sorry about your STBX not even inquiring about you. I know the feeling. As you have taught me, the important part is to acknowledge the fact but not dwell on it. Too much wasted energy to worry about stuff we really have no say about.
Get well soon Carlos. That's what matters for now. Remember you have many friends here who support you and care for you. I am one of them.
JR
Me:44 WAW:43 Children S13,S11,S7 Married 17 yrs W left JUN 08 W filed JAN 09 D proceedings dismissed AUG 09 W refiles 1 MAR 11
I hope you are resting well today. The surgery stinks, but for me the worst part was the 1st day of physical therapy. That was the killer, not because it hurt to move the knee, but b/c of the psychological fear I had of moving my swollen knee again. Once I did one complete revolution on the bike, I was fine, but man I was mentally messed up before I was able to do that. The mind is a mysterious thing indeed.
I'm sorry to hear that stbx hasn't asked you how you are doing. That is sad, but just another sample of how stbx lives in her world and is only concerned about herself. It hurts b/c you know you once shared love at one time, but in reality, it should go to help you to remember who you were really dealing with and why you are in a much better place now that she's gone.
Hi JR, Rob and SB, I'm doing well. The pain kind of comes and goes - though it seems to be manageable right now. I started writing about it on my blog - since I found that I'm not going through a lot of stuff that others write about in their ACL repair blogs.
My mom was here for a week - which was wonderful. She helped me tremendously on the day of the surgery - and then made lots of great meals afterward...though it's hard to eat so much tasty (i.e. less-healthy) Peruvian food without being able to exercise.
The surgery left me in a complete daze for a couple days - and now the pain seems to wear me out a bit (I can't sleep through the night yet because of the brace) - but, all in all, I think it's going well. I had a good friend come into town to help me after my mom left. She'll be here for a few more days - and then I'll be on my own again.
As for STBX...her concern about my knee has mostly involved who will be picking up my baby boy from daycare. I told her that my mother and a friend would be helping me for the first couple weeks - and she made a fuss about not being comfortable with someone (i.e. my female friend) picking up my son - and asked to meet my friend. Since I don't trust her, I simply informed her that I would be in the car as well - and then she seemed dropped it.
I talk with my S13 almost everyday - and sometimes it's just so heartbreaking. He's doing great - already enjoying his new school, loving his new soccer team, and just making the most of his new environment. He tells me he misses us a lot - and he has cried a couple more times when talking on the phone - but we've been able to play chess and some other games online while using video and voice chat - which he tells his mom is almost like being in the same room with me.
On the personal front...I'm trying to get myself to write more. It occurred to me recently that I've never allowed my fiction/creative writing to be of value in and of itself - it's always been secondary to whatever else I've been doing in my life - more or less like a glorified hobby - and yet when I think about what I enjoy doing the most (work-wise) - it's writing...somehow this past year has put major obstacles between my imagination and the page - and so I'm working at finding a way to rid myself of those obstacles - which seems rooted in something deep inside of me...though which I just cannot yet understand for some reason.
That said, sometimes when I catalog this past year of my life, I just feel exhausted...and my mind just freezes...it's a terrible feeling - almost like I'm staring in shock at a Tsunami that is forever moving toward me while I stand on wet sand. I have to get over that - accept my life more fully for what it has been, and make the changes I have to make. I have to pull myself away from the mesmerizing force of that Tsunami - sometimes it's far too easy just to stop what I'm doing and stare at the messy memories of my life - and continue to rebuild.
