so..my weekend was great..the time with Caleigh is always awesome..Kim remains Ok to deal with..and sensible at the moment..
VST41 and I brought all the kids together this weekend. It was all very natural and all got along great..VST41's daughters came to my families "3rd sunday dinner" and all went well..
Positive is a good thing. I was a negative bastard for a long, long time..Negativity sucks. It does nothing to help the sitch your in. It only brings more stress, more heartache, more batchitt crazy..positive change brings good things into your life..it brings happiness, joy..hopefulness..all the things you want, need, desire...it's funny what a positive state of mind will do for you as a person..
it may just make you feel like you're the luckiest guy on the planet..
so..my weekend was great..the time with Caleigh is always awesome..Kim remains Ok to deal with..and sensible at the moment..
VST41 and I brought all the kids together this weekend. It was all very natural and all got along great..VST41's daughters came to my families "3rd sunday dinner" and all went well..
Positive is a good thing. I was a negative bastard for a long, long time..Negativity sucks. It does nothing to help the sitch your in. It only brings more stress, more heartache, more batchitt crazy..positive change brings good things into your life..it brings happiness, joy..hopefulness..all the things you want, need, desire...it's funny what a positive state of mind will do for you as a person..
it may just make you feel like you're the luckiest guy on the planet..
Mike, you freak me out buddy......To much to similar between us that it scares me....lol
So glad things going well and totally agree with all of the above.
IMO you have to just put yourself back out there..I'll be honest that I'm scared pretty much chittless..but the alternatives are not very appealing to me..I'd rather not lock myself in my house, I'd rather not be a pissed off human being...I'd rather not be a SOB..I've made a choice and am attempting to live the way I should live...positive..happy..it's all about choices..right?? we choose to love, we choose to let ourselves feel again...we choose/make our version of happy without letting someone else do that for us..
as far as Kim goes..well...that is what it is...she's working with me..are we friends?..no..are we civil?...right now yes...do I play into her drama anymore?..no...am I ready to jerk a knot in her ass if she attempts to piss on my carpet?? Yes it's funny..I met Kim yesterday to drop Caleigh off...I looked at Kim..I mean I really looked at her..and saw NO BEAUTY...I saw UGLY..very unattractive..I can no longer seem to find any reason why we ever got together with the exception of Caleigh..
I'm assuming that the lack of anything that resembles "feeling's" with Kim has long since died and I now feel what she says she felt towards me..what all WAS's say..maybe I'm a true WAS now?? who knows..
it's good to be able to sit back...examine all this..and not spin..
I looked at Kim..I mean I really looked at her..and saw NO BEAUTY...I saw UGLY..very unattractive..I can no longer seem to find any reason why we ever got together with the exception of Caleigh..
I'm assuming that the lack of anything that resembles "feeling's" with Kim has long since died and I now feel what she says she felt towards me..what all WAS's say..maybe I'm a true WAS now?? who knows..
That is a powerful statement there. It must have been a surreal feeling to look at her and not see what you once thought you could not live without. Definitely hits home with me thats for sure.
Glad you had such a great weekend and things are going so well for you. Gives me hope that no matter where I end up it will be better than whee I am at.
