Thank you. Anyone that says a prayer for someone else is doubly blessed.
Yeah, I'm a numbers geek. I am still at it at my kitchen table. I just decided to take a little break and check on everyone.
I trust completely in the Lord. He will guide me and I will be strong.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
The honest truth is that H is sound asleep and I sat here and cried for the last hour or so. I guess when I took a break it wasn't such a hot idea. Now I am going to go get ready for bed and go in my bedroom - alone.
I am best kept busy with work or whatever. Some days I am so good, and some days I'm not. The good thing is that he has no idea that I was crying. DAM anyway - I hope he sleeps well. At least one of us will.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
Did you notice I updated my profile? I am so glad I moved home. It really was the best thing that I could do.
I am doing good today. I had IC this morning and she was almost asking me if I still needed to come see her because she thought I was doing so well. I assured her that I was very far from ready to stop C. I still have a long way to go. Though I agree I am doing better, I still have my days.
For those not around when I started, I started out so shattered. It has taken me so long to get to a place of calm, confident, unconditional love. Whatever happens my faith in God has grown. I am certainly a different person now than I was.
Sorry for the quick post. I've been reading mostly. Now I am going to watch some tv and have an adult beverage. ; ) H is hanging with his guy friends tonight so I am just kicking back and relaxing.
I'm supposed to be doing work - but I just don't seem to be able to bring myself to do it. Maybe with a little break that will change.
Praying for everyone tonight.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
{{{{KJo}}}} My friend..sorry iwas AWOL for a few days due to account issues..but you sound like you are doing better..I'm so glad you are still in your home and enjoying your bed You totally deserve to be somewhere you are content..
Ugh..I know about that crying/alone in the bedroom feeling..why does that have to suck so much? LOL..I do pretty well during the day until that time of the night
I hope your Sunday is wonderful!
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
You do sound really really good. You're coping, handling, going to C, taking breaks, crying, and acknowledging your own growth. And after that you still have time to check on friends.
Hugs
M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months 4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10 I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.
hey KJ thank you for the prayers last nite, i think thats why the night went ok!! i am proud of you my stronger every day friend!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
Hey guys. Work has been a bear all week, which is why I haven't been on. I still have had a struggle with my emotions this week. But I am looking forward to the weekend. I am all caught up and don't have to take any work home!
I took next Wednesday off of work. We are only open until 12 and it isn't worth it to drive an hour in, an hour home and work for 4 hours. Besides, I have pies to bake.
I will continue to say prayers for everyone. I hope to be able to get back on later. That has been impossible because of work and fatigue by the time I get home.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
