A Rough Year Continues.... 4

[1hope]

Wow, that's too bad.

Mine had lots of ear infections, but never pneumonia. I hope she avoids it this time.

I took today off from work after the Alien left this morning. I felt icky when I woke up, and decided to take a day for myself. Maybe get some things done that I missed while we were up north last weekend.

I want to be out of the house before he comes home early to get ready for his last night of golf league. I might go shopping

Anyway, since it is their last night of league play I can be sure that he will be home late. I would really like to miss another Alien encounter.

[TwinDad]

Good luck with tonight

[1hope]

Have you started a new thread?

[TwinDad]

Hope,

I will be out most of the day today. I hope things went well last night. I will probably start a new thread in a couple of days. I am thinking about jinxing myself and making it a "busted" one......lol

[1hope]

Thanks for letting me know.

Things went well because H has not spoken to me since the bedroom episode Monday night.

He was at the bar until quite late last night, came home and slept on the couch.

[1hope]

So, it is pretty safe to say that he has retreated back into the tunnel. This morning I am feeling a bit sad about it. I expected it, but I am still frustrated.

In addition, he did not deposit his paycheck yesterday and we had some direct debit bills hit....one was the house payment. So lots of NSF fees. I should probably call and ask if he is going to deposit any money (he cot his check on Monday) but I don't want to upset him.

I'm tired of this.


I just feel down.

[1hope]

Finally called H to ask about his check. It went ok. He wants me to call him before lunch to see how his day will shape up. If he can't get out in time to make the deposit I will pick up his check on my lunch hour and do the banking.

The good thing is that while I was talking to him he said that he wished that he had just given me his check to deposit, instead of trying to do it himself...and not having time.

The Alien invasions are such a pain in the a$$.

[1hope]

Went at lunch and picked up H's check. He apologised for me having to do it and asked me to stay and talk while he ate lunch.

Things went well, I kept it light and positive. He asked how my day at work was going, and noticed what I was wearing. It's been a while since he has done either of those things.

He gave me a hug and a kiss before I left, and again apologised for me having to do the running.

Hopefully the Alien is gone again.

[Neilh23]

Hi Hope...just checking in. Seems like you've been on a roller coaster the last couple of days. Remember, it's how you get off that makes all the difference. These are his issues, not yorus. Unfortunately, he takes his emotions out on you......that's what makes this tough on you.

stay strong......you are doing really well. Keep it up! I'm proud of the fact that you are staying with this.....

[1hope]

Thanks Neilh,

I think I may have found what has sent my H into the Alien's tunnel the past couple of days....

We had a pretty nice evening last night. Went to bed as normal. When I woke up this morning, H was not in bed. Had left at some point in the night and went down to the couch.

He got up struggling with a bad mood, and said that he had not been able to sleep for the "usual reasons." I asked if he meant heart burn, and he yelled "NO." So I let it drop.

He got his temper back under control and I was helping him pack his lunch. Out of the blue he told me that the homeowner where they were working on Monday...(popsicle girl) had lost his W to cancer two years ago. He said that she had been diagnosed with breast cancer, been treated and been clear for 5 years, then relapsed and it was spread throughout her body and she died.

I asked, "do you think you couldn't sleep because you were thinking about that?" He said, "no, I was just mentioning it to you."

Yeah, sure.... Bingo! Another Ah-Ha moment. Why is it that he can't recognize the things that are causing his feelings????

I did say to him, you know, none of knows how much time we have, but I don't believe that is going to happen to me. I feel very good. Everything will be ok.