School finished well, and I'm looking forward to working with those same kids next year. Nothing beats having summers off. I read a quote from Henry James the other day that said something liek this: "Summer afternoon, summer afternoon...the two most beautiful words in the English languge." Amen, brother!
At the same time, it's hard to go from 60 to 0 in a day. I have lots of projects, but I have so much more itme to think about H and our M. Need to be careful not to gt maudlin. I went out with a GF--the one who's getting M'ed in July in WI--to see Get Smart. It was so fun and funny. It won't win an Oscar anytime soon, but I laughed hard and felt better for it.
Nothing new with H. He's laying low but makes contact. I miss him, but I feel like I'm doing a good job moving forward with my own healing and growing.
This weekend I am hosting an equestrian yoga clinic.
OK, this alone made be laugh for at least 4 minutes straight. I think I was picturing people doing yoga on horses. What is this exactly? And how did it go?
I am going to WI on July 11-13 in the Lacrosse area, I think. The challenge I face right now is that the woman I will travel and room with is in Mexico until Wednesday. I want to buy my ticket but I don't want to assume anything about leaving at o-dark thirty on Sunday morning to catch a flight in Minneapolis without talking with her. I'm trying to TM her as her cell isn't picking up at all. Craziness! It will work out one way or another. So anyway, are you around there?
UPDATE: We are supposed to have a real scorcher this wekend, so I prepared yesterday by mowing the lawn in front (which desperately needed it) and putting in the AC unit in the bedroom window. Now, I am 4'11" and weigh 94 lbs. I had to put that unit in by myself last year and removed it in the fall. I thought about asking H to come do it, but he's always acted like it was such a HUGE IMPOSTION for me to even ask. I can get it done, but it takes a lot of balancing and praying, as in, "Please don't let me drop this AC unit on my foot. Please don't let this old window drop down on me while I lean out and sever me at the waist." I managed to get it in there after a lot of work and a minimum of cursing.
Last night, H came in the door around 9:30, which was within 3 minutes of me getting into bed and turning off the light. I was pooped, but I rallied. He asked if I'd mowed and said it looked good. Then he said, "You put in the AC? I was going to do that for you right now!"
Damned if you do and damned if you don't, right?
So I said, "Yeah, I put it in...and it was really hard. It took me a long time." I did not whine exactly, I was more pouty in a big-eyed, poor little me tone of voice. If the light had been on, I'd have made the big eyes and the pout.
He said, "You shouldn't be lifting things this heavy. It's not good for you."
I said, "Well, I didn't want to bother you..." and left it at that.
He stayed for about an hour or so. When he left he said, "I guess I have ot go." I said, "Why don't you bring some clothes with you next time and stay over. We can greet the new day together. Think about it." He said OK.
He doesn't have AC in his place. Maybe I can play that this weekend...
I'm gong to a wedding on Sat. night. No other big plans at the moment, but who knows what will come up?
No big updates from me. H is out of town on a road trip with a MF. This is a lot like the old H, so I'm happy he went. I wish he'd be in touch, though. No word from him since he left a week ago. Ah well. In a weird way I am relieved that he's gone. I'm not on tenterhooks wondering if he's going to show up suddenly. This is really good for me and my PMA--reminds me to do for ME.
In the meantime, I have gone riding, relaxed with friends, worked in the yard and the house, sunbathed, watched movies, and bought my ticket to WI for yet another wedding this weekend. I've never been there before, and I am looking forward to getting away for a couple of days. The woman who was planning on going with me has not been in touch at all, so I went ahead and took care of myself. I have no time for flakiness!
amd, I'm glad your ride went better than my most recent! Let me know if you change your mind about a meetup. Do you have a rental car? Lacrosse is barely in WI, surely you'll want to drive around and see a little more on the wonderful scenery.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
Ellie: That is TOTALLY what I mean! It's easier not to be so angry without him around as well. I want ot sustain this when he comes back from his trip--physically and metaphorically. Any ideas out there?
WCW: I am so glad you were OK after your ride! I am sharing a rental car with another woman. We are going to be in and out, which is why I don't think I'll be able to hook up with you this time. The wedding is Saturday afternoon, and I leave the next morning.
UPDATE: * I leave tomorrow for the weekend, and I'm really looking forward to it. I plan to buy a jug of bug repellant when I get there--I her that the mosquitoes are humongous right now because of all the recent flooding. * Also, I have misplaced my diamond wedding band and another diamond ring that H gave me somewhere in my own house. I've searched for 2 days and haven't come up with them. I am distraught. Please, everyone, send me good thoughts to find my rings!
I forgot about this: I read Dear Abby the other day and a woman was scared to drive with her H because he is the road rage poster child. Abby responded by pointing out that many angry drivers are actually displacing anger about something else in their lives. This totally happened with my H. We used to just podunk along and not worry about how slowly we drove...and then he did a 180 and became very aggressive, angry, speedy, etc. I wish I could pinpoint exactly when, but I know it was after the MLC started. Just something that makes you go "Hmmm."
I've searched for 2 days and haven't come up with them. I am distraught. Please, everyone, send me good thoughts to find my rings!
