The first day was ok. I really had no problem at work. But when I got home. I tried to keep my mind off smoking and started thinking about My Marriage... I tried to forget about my marriage and started thinking about smoking. I think the meds I am on do help. When I can short circuit my smoking thoughts I forget about Smoking when I am busy. It's like it's on my mind and then I can get distracted and forget about it for a while. It is hard not working on my R at this time. Things are good though. Last night I went to bed and wife came into my bedroom and asked “Did you say goodnight? I did not know you were in bed already." so this means that when I do say good night it is not falling on dear ears. Also they restored our town clock and it is showing at the museum before they put it back. Wife said she and son are going to see it wed if I wanted to come. SO I am being included in allot of her actives. Also she went to see some rose garden last weekend. I asked her how it was and she said it was really nice and if I wanted we could go see it again this weekend... As for the somking...we will see. Like I said I did not have a brake down yet...
H
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
I really only think about it for a minute. With these meds I can pretty easily distract myself. I would be easier if I only had one thing to work with. I am doing ok. This morning was allot easier getting to work. I am proud of myself though. I was going to make sure I did not have any money in my pockets so I could not go buy some if I wanted. But it ended up having the money and I still have not bought Cig.s in 3 days now. Yesterday after I pick up son from school we went and got slurpys with the money I saved. The only thing that would have made this more enjoyable and easier would have been if my wife was an active participant. I mean wouldn't it have been nice if she would have offered to reward me with a little "nookie" each day that I have gone without?? That's cigarettes... If was for each day I have gone without nookie... I lost track after 380 days....
Anyway thanks for checking up on me. I do appreciate it...
Later
H
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
I think not having money in your pockets is a good idea. That makes it harder for you to give in the temptation. Also, when you are tempted...just think about that comment that your son made when you were camping. Plus, 1 pack of cigarettes=1 gallon of gas!
Those are some positive things from your W. Take her up on those offers to spend time with her.
Me: 42/H: 37 T: 10 years/M: 8 D9, S8 Bomb: 7.23.07 Separated: 1.20.08 D Final 3.19.09 Affair started in '05, found out parts in 11/07. They married 11.26.09
My W is getting into her "depressed" state again. She is really trying hard to find a job but she is looking at what she is qualified for not what she can do... Last night before bed I told her you look tired. She said I am. I said well maybe the dog and Son can sleep with me tonight. She said." That will not make a differ ace, I am just tired of everything".
I am doing well today. I did have a piece of Nicotine Gum. But not Cigs
Later H
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
That sucks, but you can still show her you are her partner regardless of what she choses. Take the higher road, you'll feel better about yourself. "W, I know you're tired and bummed. Son and I are going out for Slurpies with the money I would have spent on cigs, it'd be great if you'd join us. Slurpies are just the cure for a little blues AND for a cigarette craving."
Good job on the cigs, you can do it!!
Me: 42/H: 37 T: 10 years/M: 8 D9, S8 Bomb: 7.23.07 Separated: 1.20.08 D Final 3.19.09 Affair started in '05, found out parts in 11/07. They married 11.26.09
That's cigarettes... If was for each day I have gone without nookie... I lost track after 380 days....