Im so sick of second guessing everything, I know that it takes time, but when little thing like this happens, it sets me back so far.
He called and I just said I couldn't talk right now. He then called me again 5 minutes later, I just didn't answer. It could be nothing, that is why im not talking to him yet, I have calm down first.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Sorry about H Using that kind of screen name even if he sisn't intend for you to look at it it was in very bad judgement on his part.
Take a deep breath and think about what you are going to do about it. If you are going to say something try to do it in a non- arguementative way and express how much it hurts you to see this from him.
I hope things turn out ok.
I posted to you on my thread.
Talk later I'll try to e-mail you this evening.
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
ok, so I did say something since this was the 6th time he called me.
I asked him what that handle meant... he said (frank, which is the name of his new worker) said to use that name it was a good one (trickydicky) I said well it really wasn't appropriate considering his history with me and the problems with the internet.
he said: I wasn't looking at it that way.
I said: well that could be an invitation from you to any woman on the panel.
he said: I wasn't thinking of that.
Me: Of course you weren't, I don't need to see that considering the im still trying to get passed what you have done.
he said: whatever. I'll be home soon.
He just doensn't get it!!
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
I was very dipolmatic, but stated my case (see above).. he knows im upset, when he comes home I will just keep my distance.
I just hate this.. I can't trust anything and it just makes me physcially ill.
Im emotional today, which doesn't help. Sometimes I do feel that he will eventually really have an affair.. or he's already had one I just haven't found out about it yet. I know im torturing myself.. don't get me wrong I don't always feel like this, but we had such a good day on my bdday, now its one step forward two steps back.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
((((((TAL)))))))), he needs to see how badly he has treated you in the past and why this would make you nervous and sad. I'm sorry he can't see the pain he is causing you. I really don't have any advice just lots of hugs.
Yoyo
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
