Wow I'm overdue for an update! Thanks all for checking in.
ST That's a great idea with a pic in front of the car! I always forget that since it's an "in car" camera you have no idea what the car even looks like.
Did you see that car spin in front of us? Yikes!
Funny that you'd be that way on the helmet, too. What IS that about, anyway???
Michelle haha yeah, maybe you can find yourself a nice hot chauffer to drive ya around, now that would be fun.
jak Thank you! Yes, I agree that things seem better. Glad you had a nice Valentine's also! I need to check in on your thread. haha yes, if it's not designed to have the top down, leave that top up on your vehicle!
--------------------- So far so good this week... nothing major good or bad, but it's nice to feel relaxed for a little while. I had bellydance class tonight and realized it's my 10th class. Wow!! I even kept up with about 90% of it. Considering the first class I could only do maybe half the "warm up" workout and about 1/3 of the moves, I'm pretty happy with my progress. I can even do a few steps that somewhat resemble a dance move. Up until very recently I could do each of the "elements" individually but trying to string them together to look like anything? No way. Now I can actually shimmy AND move my arms at the same time. Yeah yeah, it doesn't sound impressive, until you try to DO it.. (I forget if I posted this before but here's a performance my instructor did for a competition: http://www.adrianedance.com/DemoReel.html - when I first watched that I thought it looked pretty straight forward - now that I'm trying to learn it, I am IMPRESSED!).
Nothing else much new to report.. glad to keep seeing those small but steady positives happening in my sitch, finally feels like we're moving in some kind of direction.
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread
that is awesome about keeping up with almost the whole class now! That's a great way to note your progress.
maybe you can get a video of your dancing sometime! lol jus kiddin!
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
what, it's not Dr. Love now? and, pardon me, you can see the video first. lol
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
That's an amazing video. That's amazing small muscle control and coordination. I wouldn't even want to see myself if I attempted something like that lol.
Sounds like things are generally coming along. It's good to hear!
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
haha.. umm the odds of video happening are sooo slim, don't worry!!
Michelle - I know, can you believe that?? I look at it now and wonder how she even does a lot of it! Funny though, we learned the "chest lift" (aka "boob pop") and I apparently have strong upper abs.. she told me "You're a natural!" I blushed about 50 shades of red, but apparently I'm good at that. Guess it probably just builds over time, every little movement!
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread
[/quote]Nothing else much new to report.. glad to keep seeing those small but steady positives happening in my sitch, finally feels like we're moving in some kind of direction.[quote]
Small but steady wins the war!
Glad to things are stil good. Belly dancing is so good for toning I just wish there was something round here like that I could do.
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
H haha seriously.. video is not likely.. show in Vegas? Ummm never!! I passed out last time I had to try to do a presentation in front of people at work. Now I'm just really good at writing and scripting them.
jak I sure hope so! Had a couple nights I was iffy about this week. I wasn't in a great mood, and didn't "fake it" around H... it was weird, he seemed to jump right to the negative, followed by me taking it personally and getting upset, followed by more negatives. It wasn't THAT bad but a definite pattern. And it made me think a lot. So - am I not "allowed" to be in a bad mood around H? That's really not OK... but at the same time, "faking it til I make it" seems to help BOTH of us in the long run. There's probably a balance I haven't yet found.
On the exercise.. I LOVE the dance class for that reason, you definitely tone, and in really specific areas. There's nothing like that around you? That's too bad! I am still trying out some DVDs so if any are good I'll be glad to recommend them. I can ask my instructor too if you want - she mostly knows people in Cali but is pretty "tuned in" to the bellydance community so she may know of people in your area. (NY right?).
---------------------- Some journaling...
Tonight met some friends for drinks after work and we stayed way too long (aren't those the best nights?? ). Enjoyed it a lot.
Got home and H was kinda irritated how late it was.. although he told me earlier HE would be gone all night (working on his car at a friend's house), so I didn't think it was a big deal. He told me about his day, asked about mine - this seems to be a new "thing" - we used to ask and it was "good, yours?" - now it seems important, to him especially, that I really listen to what he says and talk more about his day. I always babbled about my day anyway, so I've been trying to put more focus on him/his day (still talking about mine, but not being so focused on it).
He kept hemming and hawing and finally asked if I needed help emptying the trunk - I said no, why? He said he thought I must've been out shopping. I said no, I was out with some friends. He looked a bit surprised and asked if I was sure I didn't need help carrying anything in. Just thought it was funny. Later H asked who, specifically, I was with so I told him.. he's been very open so I am OK with that if he asks right now.
I feel like I'm getting too caught up again, putting myself in too vulnerable of a position. I also feel like it's the best time TO do that, our best shot at making things work long term. Kinda tough to balance right now. I have to avoid looking at calendars. I just realized today that's why I haven't filled out "08" yet - I don't want to "see" how long this has truly been going on. At the same time, I REALLY feel him trying hard and I feel myself wanting to risk it. This gets easier sometime right??
I'm trying to plan some good GAL stuff for the weekend (and avoid getting too "dependent" on our M). Hopefully all that works out well.
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread
"I wasn't in a great mood, and didn't "fake it" around H... it was weird, he seemed to jump right to the negative, followed by me taking it personally and getting upset, followed by more negatives."
Um, how about being direct and telling him you are in a bad mood?
(I forget if I posted this before but here's a performance my instructor did for a competition: