LWB, Here is a quote that I thought was very fitting for you right now. Never regret crying.
"Even if our tears are for ourselves, for our ache of loneliness, for our pain of loss, they are ... sacred, for they are tears of our love." Jack Stern Jr.
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
Hoping you are okay. I am sorry for the pain you are feeling. The OW is showing she is the desperate one. I think that is good news that her husband even knows your husband broke things off. Sounds like it must be true.
I got a sitter and went out. Saw a movie and then had a few drinks at a bar. H was SURE I was out, meeting men......He was out too. We talked back and forth all day (his calling me). Up until about 11pm, I was hearing from him, seemed ok...
I wake up at 4:45am, and he is not home. He was supposed to work at 6am. This summer, if this happened, it wouldn't have surprised me one bit, but since August or so, he is usually home by 12m or earlier. I started to worry. I knew (because OW's H called the night before) that OW wasn't out last night. I called and called...texted 'nice' texts ("Just let me know you are ok" kind of thing). Finally I had to start my day (I had to work and the girls were waking up).
He finally calls when I am leaving for work...
Me: Hello.
H: Hi.
Me: Are you ok?
H: Yes.
Then I hung up.
After ignoring a few of his calls, I answer again....
Me: Hello.
H: Uh..uh...is (the sitter) there?
Me: Yes, I am leaving for work.
H: Uh...uh..can I come home?
Me: I am leaving for work.
I hung up again. I had the info I needed. He was alive. I was honestly worried he had been arrested or was dead. Stupid LWB...And to not answer me for almost 2 hours? Common courtesy here....
He was pulling into the subdivision as I was pulling out. I didn't even look his way.
I will never ask where he was. I have no idea if he stayed home from work, is with the girls, or what. I know either way (sitter or him) the girls are ok, so I am ok. If I find out he is at home, I will not go home after work. Not right away.
Once I found out about the A, I never once called him when he was out. Not once. This is my first time ever. Silly me, shame on me for thinking it might be different, and something was wrong with him.
Seriously, I got the info I needed, that I didn't need to plan a funeral today (unless I kill him later, then it might be inappropriate to plan it myself....).
I really don't want to speak to him right now, I need distance.
