MY DB Coach said that when things don't go the way you hope, that is often a better (or even the best) opportunity to show your changes and true colors
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That's true GD, this is such an excellent opportunity to show strength/confidence & that is such an aphrodisiac to those we wish to desire us.
Quote:
"You can't steal second base if one foot is always on first."
Are you a Jimi Hendrix fan by chance? Looking forward to meeting you in Orlando too
Couldn't help but wonder the same thing, Nomo!
Okay, ran into a bump in the road:
While I was on the phone long distance making reservations, W calls on the other line and leaves a VM. I checked it when I got a chance and it said,
"Hey it's me. You can just drop off the kids at my parents' house on your way to dance team practice tonight. I'm doing something with [stepmom] tonight so I'll just pick them up there when we're done. Call me if you have any questions. Okay, bye."
ARRGH!!! Looks like I'm not going to get that opportunity I'd hoped for tonight, and I'm not sure if I'll get another one unless I actually ask her to meet up to talk or just do it over the phone.
I'm going to call the inlaws here shortly to make arrangements to drop off the kids, and maybe I can get a feel for whether or not I'll see W there at all. One thing that strikes me as odd is that W actually dislikes her stepmom a great deal. I mean, tries to avoid spending time with her at all costs (doesn't answer calls from her, return calls from her, etc). This being said, I'm very curious as to what the two of them are going to be doing.
I'm trying not to think about it too much, but I can't help but wonder if W actually wants to talk with her stepmom about the D and whether or not she wants to go through with it (or about whether or not stepmom knows how I am feeling about it). If she does talk with stepmom about how I seem to be doing or feeling about all of this, I'm thinking I'll get a lot of positive talk from stepmom on my behalf. The only things I've told stepmom during the last month or two are that I am finally comfortable living by myself, that W's boyfriend seems real nice in how he treats my kids and that I'm at least happy about that, that I'm loving my dance activities, etc. Nothing but good, happy things (and no mention of W or the R/M and upcoming D), and I've only talked about these things when asked. It has never come across as forced or artificial. She even asked me if I was dating/seeing anyone from my dance stuff and I told her, "No, I'm just not ready to take that step yet. I'm really happy with where I'm at right now and just focusing on me." The inlaws know that I'd love to work things out with W, but now they can see that I'm doing just fine without her, and this is definitely a good thing (esp with MIL (i.e. stepmom) and W hanging out tonight).
Again, odd timing with the just two of them hanging out both right after the good conversation between W and I on Tuesday and the D being 1 week away. The fact that W doesn't like her and never really has makes this all the more strange. I'm so praying that this is about W's reluctance to D.
Anyway, I'm still going to continue rehearsing for the talk just in case I still do get a chance somehow. Thanks for all of the awesome support from you all! It has been very helpful in keeping my confidence and PMA going strong!
GD, I hope when you talk to her that she will have a change of heart about going thru with the D.
Me: 41 H: 39 D: 6 S: 4 M-14 T-16 first bomb: 5-12-07 (M dead doesn't really want to work things out.) second bomb: 6-4-2007 (found note he wrote about wanting desperately to be with OW and would have to give up everything) Kelley
I'm wondering why both you and GD are wondering if I'm a Jimi Hendrix fan. Actually, I'm more of a Grateful Dead, the Who, and Allman Brothers fan. So I guess you could say I like music from that era.
I'm looking forward to getting a chance to dance with both of you. The night sounds like fun.
