Wait ... I'm still crying a bit ... and wanting to give you a huge hug.
Your post was so just what I hoped to hear from you at some point. Yes, you get it. You got it going on.
As for your H, I so hope for his sake he has broken away from the alien race. He may be so damaged that nothing really changes from here for a while. You sound so capable of dealing with anything that comes your way, you will be fine.
I know you would want H to be fine one day and now he may, if only in his strange way. As for the end of replay and so on, who knows? I like your idea that if you have to ask, "they aren't".
I hope your H continues a forward journey for himself. I hope when he is ready it leads him to his own return to his own life and his own love ... you.
Above all else, I am just so thrilled to know that you are ok, and you are going to stay ok. I think you have made it through your own tunnel to your own return to reality. Thank God. God bless you and everyone around you, each and every day.
Thanks, friends. Glad you all stopped by. I appreciate all the kind words. I still have a long way to go but I'm not in panic and scared mode anymore. I am so thankful for that. I started reading again, something I lost concentration for, for over a year. I can get through a workday without reverting my thoughts back to H. I go out, have fun. I don't know what will happen between me and H anymore but I no longer dwell on it all the time. He has a long way to go for himself. I should make it clear he hasn't said to me that he wants to work things out between us, either. God's helped me be ok up till now. I trust that what is meant to be will present itself in it's own due time.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
It is great to know that you have made it through. It sounds like a little reconnection is going on here. He still wants you in his life. He seems to be making some sane decisions and this is always good.
Keep doing what you are doing. Take care Dear. You sound wonderful.
Hi Hope, glad to see you are doing well. This is the old "Iluv2teach". Keep in touch. You are an inspiration.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
You sound good. Glad to hear it. Sounds like you're just moving forward, living life and not letting your H's antics get you down. You are slowly starting to detach more and more. You are getting to a strong, whole place. And I love to hear that. After all, that's what we're all about here, right?
How's the new job going? How is your family? Your niece?
BTW, I sent you an email a few weeks ago. Not sure if you still check that account.
So, what books are you reading, anyway. I'm always up for a good book (but not some sappy romance novel).
Married 9 years Kids 5 and 6 Bomb 2006 H back and forth for a year M now back on track
Hey Hope! So glad to see you! You sound fabulous. Please do keep us posted. Come by my thread soemtime--I'm having chilled white wine as I type!
Here's a great summertime book: "Pretty Little Mistakes." It's a choose your own adventure book for adults. Very fun, very easy to read, and very addictive.
