Guess I will just journal since no one has any advice for me.
We had sex last Tuesday evening. I am glad that we do have sex occasionally. But I wish it were more fulfilling. I'm not even sure how I can do that on my own. There are things I'd like to try, but he comes to bed after I am too groggy to want to try them. By then, I would rather just get it over with. I enjoy it as much as I can, but without any flirting or romance, it is almost meaningless.
I flirt with H sometimes. Sometimes it's just to show him I'm thinking about him. Other times I am trying to get his attention. He doesn't seem to notice. Either that or her purposely ignores it. A few weeks ago, H had to leave late in the morning for a business trip. D was gone at school, S was either still at his apartment or at work. It seemed to me that we had some extra time we could have fun with. I kept trying to get H's attention. He had his computer in his lap and was doing nothing in particular on it. Before he left, he said that I seemed angry about something. I told him that I wasn't angry, I was just trying to figure out why I have such a hard time getting his attention. I told him that I thought we had plenty of time and maybe we could have had some fun. He said, "but we didn't have time." I think it was just an excuse. How do I make sex more fun for him so that he will stop making excuses? I can't seem to coax him to come to bed earlier in order to try new things. Ideas would be appreciated.
