180man Update

[180Man]

I'm sorry Jim, that stinks. Uncertainty is not a fun place to be, I definitely feel you on that. Casual contact makes it very hard, too. Somehow it seems to me that in many situations you end up with one person who wants to work on it and the other who is done. I'm not sure how that happens, or why. I'm not sure how you can screen a significant other and make sure you're signing on with one of the ones who will work on it. I guess you can't...which makes me sad.

ERAU. Sounds like somebody knows this business! Yeah, one of my old CO's is getting some of his ratings finished and converted on the civilian side right now...so the guy who sat my board and made me an Aircraft Commander may one day be my first officer. Crazy. But then again, the military is doing little to actually keep guys. It's easy to throw money at people, but that's not what they want. Never have I ever sat next to a dude in the cockpit and the guy was like "yeah man, I love this job but it's really just not enough money."

As for her...yes, of course it is. She does need space...and I have been giving it to her. But I can't let her move in two months and leave things as they are right now. She is not an initiator, she will do anything to avoid conflict. I could care less about breaching an awkward situation, and I know if I approach her in person I can improve the situation. You know, just normalize things so we can at least keep in contact. Then when she does figure some things out, at least there's an open channel. I don't expect miracles to happen in such a short time, but if we can text once in a while, I think that's a decent middle ground between her needing space and me wanting to keep the door open. Might be wishful thinking. Might be overbearing on my part. But I fell for her and I don't want to give it up without at least making sure there's an avenue for starting fresh if and when the time comes. I think much of our issues stem from military moves and career pressure. The military has had their piece of me, I don't want them taking anything else if I can help it!