I used to post a lot more back when XH and I first split - back on the newcomers and MLC boards. This was over two years ago.
We've been making a lot of progress in our relationship, especially since this past spring. We just started spending a lot of time as a family, and spending more time talking to each other.
We made the decision at the end of last month to bite the bullet, and he moved back in with me and our children. He's been expressing sorrow and regret over what he's done for much of the past year. The past couple of weeks, despite a few issues, have been pretty good, and we're actively working on being able to communicate better and make more time for ourselves as a couple than we did when we were married.
I'm having issues with anxiety. I knew I would. He's been very understanding and accommodating about what my experience has been like. But right now, I'm wondering when I can sit, and breathe, and not be looking over my shoulder or waiting for the other shoe to drop? I have a feeling this is normal, and that is why I've seen it called pieRcing on the other boards... I just never really thought I'd be here until I actually found myself here, you know?
Me - 30, H - 32 T - 10, M - 6, D - 1 DD#1 - 4, DD#2 - 2 on/off OW 4/09 - sometime Summer 2010 (Told me about OW 4/10) Separated 6/11/09, divorced 8/4/10, trying again 9/2011
I just never really thought I'd be here until I actually found myself here, you know?
And to clarify, this is to say that I had actually given up on the idea of ever reconciling with him in this way before our divorce last year, so when he presented the idea several months back I was surprised. But other than the time that he was dating OW, we've had a friendly coparenting relationship.
Me - 30, H - 32 T - 10, M - 6, D - 1 DD#1 - 4, DD#2 - 2 on/off OW 4/09 - sometime Summer 2010 (Told me about OW 4/10) Separated 6/11/09, divorced 8/4/10, trying again 9/2011
I know how you feel, I wish that there was an easy answer on how to deal with these feelings. Just remember the little steps that have gotten you to where you are now. That is what I have been doing. I think that time will heal. I wish that I could help with advise on how to control those feelings but I do believe that they are normal since I have them to. Just keep journaling here maybe someone has some advise. My thoughts are with you.
M 48 H 51 Married 30 S 29 D 28 GD 5 GS 17 months Sep May 2011 H home 8-18-11
Just hang in there...and don't be too hard on yourself. In fact, don't be hard on yourself at all. It's a tough road. Just get up and dust yourself off....practice all the good things you know. You know what they are.
M 55 H 58 M 24 T 29 S 22,21, 19 Bomb 4/10 It (A) really isn't about you 11/2013 We all have work to do
The truth will set you free, but it will almost kill you first.
