No contact from H today and i miss him. Its raining to so cant do much with the kids.
I've thought long and hard about stuff today, and read alot especially like reading the posts from 25yearsmic, wish i could get him to have look at my sitch and get his opinion.
My way forward now is forgivness towards my H, we have made our peace albeit fragile at the moment, and i really want to move forwards with him.
Thought i was doing really well until my son brings up that daddy's planning on them meeting the OW, and it sticks in my throat. My kids are just getting things back on an even keel, and i'm really worried that this may push them back (and me!)
I know i have made alot of fantastic babysteps, but i feel impatient! I want him and i want him NOW, dont worry i'm not going to blow it, that was the old me!
Me - 40 DS - 7 DD - Nearly 4 M - 8 years T - 10 years S - Feb 11
