Need Advice!! Not sure on next move!! Part 3

[dixiegal]

Thanks BITS,

I plan on just sending a simple "Happy Birthday To You!" on Saturday.

That's it...

I then will make myself REAL busy! I've just been a wreck these past few days...Crying, Thinking crazy OW possibilities and such. Gosh, would it not be easier if we acted like them? I would not of course. But, dang it seems so easy for them. It's so hard to wrangler your anger sometimes. Hence, the long walks!

They just disgard us and walk off...we are left devasted. They think I'll just start over..no big deal?! LIFE is not fair...GOD didn't promise us fair that's for sure. Good thing is today I have Church Choir. I need to be lifted up this evening. I'm looking forward to it!

I've been waking up the last few days and H does not pop into my head instantly. LOL it takes a few minutes...but, that's progress right? The dreams have stopped EVERYDAY of H too. I dream about GOD a lot these days. I wake up sometimes and I've been talking or praying in my sleep!!!

I'm sorry BITS I've been off the boards for 4-5 days...I'll get back going...just taking me awhile.

Thank you all for supporting me! I'm down but, I'm not out yet

BITS

Dixie

[lostinscared]

It might be easier momentarily to act like them, but in the end, we would feel like garbage. That is not your set of values and of course, you know that.

I am so sorry that you are struggling. You don't deserve this as you have one of the sweetest souls. Go sing your heart out at choir and put your energy towards that.

I am glad you made the decision to text on Saturday. Remember, no expectations...

I'm praying for you!!!

LIS

[FellOnBlackDays]

Dixie,
Don't EVER wish you could be like him!!! You are the one holding this thing together. You are the one still with your feet on the ground. My C tells me this all the time, "(name), whether you feel this way or not, you are doing a much better job of handling this than your W is. You are growing, learning and striving for better. She is just walking around pissed and blaming others. You are the better person despite the fact that she left."

Never stop thinking about that Dixie! You are the better person, you are the light in this thing! Never, never wish to not care like they do. You have too much love in your heart to ever act like him. All my BITS do!!!

BITS never walk alone, NEVER!!!

FOBD

[lostinscared]

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
What FOBD said!

I'm praying for you.

LIS

[Firstlove]

Dixie

I got this devotional this morning on my computer, thought I would share it with you because you and I it seems are in the same boat, with the spouse just walking away and not seeming to care at all, at least that is how it feels to me most days, so this really spoke to me this morning

Remembering That God Is Faithful

Remembering That God Is Faithful
Posted: 24 Feb 2011 02:00 AM PST
by Charles R. Swindoll

Remember my affliction and my wandering,
the wormwood and bitterness.
Surely my soul remembers
And is bowed down within me.
This I recall to my mind,
Therefore I have hope.
The LORD’s lovingkindnesses indeed never cease,
For His compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
Great is Your faithfulness.

—Lamentations 3:19–23

Lord God, thank You for being more than a friend. Thank You for Your sovereign hand upon us, for Your mercies that are new every morning, for Your great faithfulness. Thank You for not leaving us when we should have been rejected and left, for not abandoning us when we deserved it. Thank You for being true to Your Word. Thank You for keeping Your promise that all who come to You will in no way be cast out. Thank You, our Shepherd, for Your sheepdogs—for goodness and mercy and, especially, faithfulness—that follow unrelentingly at our heels. In faithfulness, You will receive those who come to You.

We pray for those who've run away from You. We request that You would win them back through Your compassion and mercy. We ask that they would sense the sympathetic faithfulness of God and that that alone would draw them like a magnet to You.

In the name of Christ, our strong Savior, we pray. Amen.

My wife has run away, not only from me but from God, and all I can do is pray for her return to both of us. I know this, she will have to return to God first and then to me second, for if she thinks she will return to me, without her total surrender to Christ in her life and lead a Christ centered and led life, our R will never work. All I am doing is trusting God and His plan for my life, and not trusting her or seeking my peace in her, that is all I am able to do.

[dixiegal]

First Love,

THANK YOU THANK YOU! I sat here and wept as I read it.....

I needed that....I needed to be reminded!

I pray every single day for GOD to soften his heart and to soften all of our spouses hearts. I pray for the moment that they have finally been brought to knee that they will call for him. As I did.

My H as your W has also ran from our Marriage, the Damage/Mess that he helped to create and GOD. But, if/when your wife returns you could be the one to lead her all the way back to GOD. I know now, that I did not lead my H back to GOD like I couldve. It eats me up somedays, when I recall the things that my H was saying. On the days that his heart was warming and he was talking about being family and going to church...

So, if your W comes back take her as she is. GOD will do the rest...

I'm praying for you always,

BITS

Dixie

[Firstlove]

Dixie

The Lord is a comfort to each and everyone of us as we go to Him in our weakness. One of the inspirations I receive daily, in addition to the devotional from Chuck Swindoll, is the daily devotional that I read in a book called

Jesus Calling by Sarah Young - you might want to google it and see if you can pick up a copy of of it - it truly is an encouragement to me each and everyday.

Where is your H now in your life, is he still involved, is there a hope for R with him ?

[dixiegal]

FirstLove,

Thanks I'll stop by Mardel's and see if they have that book!

I have not spoken to H now for over a week and have not seen him in a month. He made it clear a few days before Christmas he was done. He called all our family and told them the same. He called and asked me to meet him for Dinner last Thursday. However, he cancelled that day. Said he would call me in a few days to reschedule. But, he never did. However, last Saturday he sent me a texted that said, "I miss you Dixie". But, nothing sense then.

I'm not ready to give up hope for R. But, it doesn't look good. But, I have heard stories at Church of worst sitch and they made it back. I'm just praying for R and to stay in GOD's will.

Praying for us all!

BITS

Dixie

[zengypsy]

DG - You hang on to those stories of hope and faith. I truly believe that our WAS's will find their way home to us again. At that juncture, WE will have control of how wide we want to keep that door open or not.

Keep up all the hard work you have done to make yourself a much stronger women. Represent yourselfin th ebest way possible each and every day.

HUGS - ZEN

[2stepboogie]

He over reached and got spooked. He tested the waters and you jumped in head first. Now give him time to regroup. What were you doing that caught his interest.

I think you know.

Keep doing it.

He was sure excited about the flight lessons