I thought as it was New Year, it was time to start a new thread.
I am in Melbourne at the moment to visit me in February. She has had a really difficult year this year so I cannot wait to see her!
Things are good, I am feeling pretty calm and settled over all. I am staying with my sister-in-laws family at the moment so I actually have a double bed and a room to myself. I can't tell you how good that is after living in dorms for so many months!
Happy New Year Julia. You're lucky to be doing what you are doing now, although I know it came off the back of a bad sitch. I sure wish I had done more travelling before I got pg, but then I did have a whole decade to do it but didnt get around to it! Staying with relatives sounds nicer than sharing a dorm, so have fun!
Al xx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
It is so nice to have a room to myself and also chill out space to myself. Just stuff like watching TV and being able to read a magazine on my bed and even getting to sit on a sofa that isn't minging all stuff you learn to appreciate!!
It is so funny how little I think about exh anymore. Well, I should say it is so great how little I think about him. I ended up answering the email he sent me before Christmas asking what I was up to. I felt the right thing to do was to tell him. So I did, I told him about the paradise that was Port Douglas, what fun I had there, about my travels in Perth and all the amazing things I had seen, my train trip to Sydney and Melbourne and how I was really looking forward to spending Christmas in Sydney with the guy I had been dating in PD and celebrating new year in Melbourne with my friends. I read it before I sent it and thought, what a wonderful alternative to what life could have been. I haven't heard from him since not even at Christmas. Yay!
Joe has been in contact since Christmas. He seems to like chatting on the phone with me and I sorted out his CV for him too. I am being very laid back about it all and seeing what happens. He said again how much he had enjoyed Christmas with me and that he misses me. I was a bit worried when I left him as there were drugs around where he was staying. He told me that he had found it really difficult but he had not taken any, even when one of the guys physically forced one in his mouth. He spat it out and left. I was really proud of him and told him so. He said that getting through that made him feel that he knew he could resist and get through it. I am there to be his friend and support him if he wants it. It has been 7 months for him now and I am proud and pleased for him.
I really feely like I am regaining my confidence again and dealing with a lot of my insecurities. It was hard to have my insecurities surface but I am so glad to be able to get them sorted. Just being me again feels good.Stoppi.ng worrying so much about everything feels good
I have work next week! Yippee! Then only a month till my sister comes out. I spoke to my family and best friend the other night and I felt very loved. My BF misses me and Mum and Dad were so pleased to chat, they said there had been a big hole in the Christmas celebrations where I should have been. I also spoke to my eldest sister and we had a lovely chat. I had sewn 2 cushion covers for my niece and nephew. My niece has her story on hers every night and my nephew, who is 8 so I wasn't sure how it would go down, apparently loved his and cuddled it and now sleeps on it in bed. I'm really pleased!
It's funny because I felt so alone for so long, that being with exh was the only way I felt loved but looking around there are so many people that care. Being away has really shown me that. Soppiness over
Glad that you feel that you are getting back to "you". Sometimes it can seem like a job in itself! Keep enjoying yourself and posting. I love to hear your updates.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
I feel a bit silly posting about this as it seems a small thing but something I am confused about how I should feel about.
Joe has been really great lately, sending me little texts and calling me. However, it is something I am just not used to, I am used to LRT where you make no initiation.
So, when I drop him a text or call him I feel anxious. Like, I am intruding or he will have to make an effort to text me back (which I know is the point!). However after all the exh madness for so long it is hard to readjust my thinking. The other thing is if I call him and he doesn't answer, again i feel like I am being a bother or something, although he said I can call him anytime.
Yesterday he called me at what he thought was my lunch hour to wish me good luck at my new job. I couldn't speak so I said I'd call him back after 5. I did and he didn't pick up. I know he was probably busy but what do I do, try him again at lunchtime, send him a message (he can't text back as no credit), or just leave it?
This sounds so silly to me to type it but after all the exh madness, I am not sure what is normal anymore!
Staying with relatives sounds nicer than sharing a dorm, so have fun!
all stuff you learn to appreciate!!
not even at Christmas. Yay!