I'm totally numb and the holidays were of course difficult. I'm not sure where to go or what to do but everyday I just try to get up and brush my teeth and try not to drive myself crazy imagining him in Mexico.
He has been checking in with me via text messages on a daily basis but I know its not because he wants me back. He just doesn't want to be the bad guy.
This is hard. Its hard to imagine ever feeling better.
