Yes, today was the first time I wore the shoes. They seemed to help but when you have to wear something new for about five hours, it can be tough but they were certainly better than what I had before.
I have been tuned into the election this evening and my kids have enjoyed the computer.
Tomorrow is a new day and I will look forward to it.
Haven't heard from H since the wee hours of this morning. It's okay, it is not like I have to talk to him 24/7.
I will probably see him tomorrow.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
Me 53 H 51 OW 25 Bomb may 06 left june 8/ 06 ILYBNILWY (twice!) 7/6/07 H wants to come home 7/21/07 H comes home 7/07 -7/08 long haul letting go of OW now piecing in earnest
H began texting me at about 10:30 last night and then he called me and we spoke until about 1AM
He had been drinking a lot. He said he began drinking at 6PM and had already consumed about 14 beers.
He said he loved me but he needed help. I asked him what kind of help and he said nobody could help him, just God. Then he asked what his children thought of him and I said that they love him. He said he does not belong over there, that you do not know what you have until it is gone. Then he asked why I still loved him, why would I ever want him back.
He said he wants to be home but he has messed up his life so bad.
He said he feels sorry for me because I have to go to work everyday and he said I was lucky that I was not like him.
It really was a bizarre conversation but that is what alcohol does to a person.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
He said he prays but God does not listen or do anything, I said to him in a subtle way, "SO what can you do in order for God to listen or help you?" He said something like, "I have heard that speech before." I said that I was not implying anything by it and the conversation just moved on.
Oh, and when he said he wanted to be here, I asked when and he kept saying, "soon."
He never brought up ow at all either.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
